I am in a really REALLY REALLY REALLY bad mood now.
strangely enough, the day started out fine. met bal for a movie for her birthday treat, even though i only paid for her ticket. we walked from cine to wisma, walked to various shops IN wisma, then walked to centrepoint cuz she was meeting her mum there. I think the bad mood started with my shoes giving me blisters, and was made worse by the fact that I unfortunately found things I wanted to buy, but could not. I still HAVE some money in my a/c, but I'm not supposed to use it. Some times I don't even know why I go window shopping. I should stop doing it then.
Anyway, after spending all my money for the day, I went to starbucks to wait for my mother and sister to call me to meet them. You know, I love my mother, I really do, but I thin I can only take her in small doses. And though I had been staying at my aunt's place for the past 3 days, and only saw my mother yesterday and today, I think I need another break from her.
I know, I'm a horrible daughter.
Its just that when I'm in a bad mood, everything around me just irritates me. The fact that my mother says she refuses to buy clothes for herself till she's sorted out all her clothing over the years(cuz she's lost so much weight, her old things don't fit her, while her old old things do), but she goes out and buys 2 "singapore shawls" that cost like 2oo plus in total. She refuses to buy actual clothes for herself, but I have to beg and bug her and find the cheapest possible version of what I want when I ask her to buy something. Which is why I was in a bad mood because I saw things today that I want and would like her to buy for me, but I know she won't. Urgh. I'm being a spoiled brat. I hate being a spoiled brat. The stuff I want to buy, add up to like over a 100 dollars. Which sucks, because that's not the end.
AND, I have to go and get $55 for the arts camp my friends and I decided to go for. Of course now I don't feel like going for it, and rather just take the money and shop. Sigh. The trials and tribulations of a bored and spoiled brat.
Oh, one more thing. I have now been introduced to this korean drama by my cousin, boys over/before flowers. I can't believe that I acutally like it and want to watch it. I shall take it as my substitution right now, because the american shows are only coming out in september and the soccer season hasn't started, and that there aren't any new hindi movies to watch. Sigh.
I'm also depressed about my weight and figure but I'm of course too lazy to actually go and run at the canal. Trying to eat less but then my bust will shrink and I don't want that. I need to go and slap myself and just CHEER UP!!
okay, I'm going to stop before I just get mad at myself.
bye now.
shini
Monday, June 8, 2009
I swear I love technology sometimes! I mean I always complain when it doesn't work with me or FOR me, but really, I do love it.
Today, was the twins' birthday, their 2nd, and, while I don't have any pictures of my own, because I forgot to bring my camera, I can probably steal my cousin's. Anyway, the party was winding down and it was mostly family left, well except Veenie, but she counts anyway. So my cousin from living in the US called and we tried to do a video conference thing, because it WAS her nieces' birthday and EVERYONE wanted to see our little tara baby. Now, the baby is 6 months old and its like 7 or 8 in the morning over there.
Although she couldn't really see US, we could see her and everything she was showing us. And let me tell you, it was so wonderful to see her and her baby and her house and everything. Because like, at random parts of the day, I'll suddenly wonder what she's doing and how she's doing. We do have family in the states, but not in new jersey, which is where she lives. And we're a fairly close-knit family, so like, it just sucks for her that she has no family over there, especially now that she's a new mother. Because her sister had us. so anyway, that's why I really love technology. Because really, without it, we'd only be able to communicate face-to-face or through letters or something.
I think I may have had something else to write about, but I totally forgot about it. So till next time!
shini
Today, was the twins' birthday, their 2nd, and, while I don't have any pictures of my own, because I forgot to bring my camera, I can probably steal my cousin's. Anyway, the party was winding down and it was mostly family left, well except Veenie, but she counts anyway. So my cousin from living in the US called and we tried to do a video conference thing, because it WAS her nieces' birthday and EVERYONE wanted to see our little tara baby. Now, the baby is 6 months old and its like 7 or 8 in the morning over there.
Although she couldn't really see US, we could see her and everything she was showing us. And let me tell you, it was so wonderful to see her and her baby and her house and everything. Because like, at random parts of the day, I'll suddenly wonder what she's doing and how she's doing. We do have family in the states, but not in new jersey, which is where she lives. And we're a fairly close-knit family, so like, it just sucks for her that she has no family over there, especially now that she's a new mother. Because her sister had us. so anyway, that's why I really love technology. Because really, without it, we'd only be able to communicate face-to-face or through letters or something.
I think I may have had something else to write about, but I totally forgot about it. So till next time!
shini
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Changes
Got a few things to talk about here.
Firstly, I'm going to make a few changes within myself, and in relation to how I behave towards certain people. I am going to be MORE forward and tell them how I feel and tell them what I want to do and not just boil and stew inside angrily. I always thought that communication is key and I never realised till now that I wasn't practicing what I was preaching. Well, all that's going to change! Only problem is that it takes some courage, and I just gotta summon that courage from somewhere. Good luck to me I guess!
Secondly, I am going to just accept people the way the are. People have good things about them and bad things about them and instead of bitching about it, I should just accept the bad things and remind myself of the good things. Of course I can try as much as possible to help them change the bad things, but in the event that I wimp out or they refuse to see my position on the matter, I will just let it be and forget it. No point harbouring all these negative feelings towards a person because its not good for the relationship or for me.
Thirdly, I realised also that education, while it is extremely EXTREMELY important for everyone, and believe me, I support that 100%, if you don't have the brilliant education or if, for example, you did not make it to university, its not the end of the world. I mean think about it, there are so many successful businessmen in the world who did not go to university. People in Singapore put so much of importance on going to the U, and my parents are one of them. But, not everyone CAN go to the U because there simply aren't enough places. That doesn't mean that those with degrees should think highly of themselves, or look down on those who didn't go to the university. I should amend what I wrote earlier. Not everyone can go to the LOCAL universities, because there aren't enough places. People, can still, down the road of their lives, enroll in a uni and get a degree. However, getting a degree is not the be all and end all. Our generation don't look down on those who don't go into the university, but people in the past did. Some people, now in their 30s 40s and 50s, who went to the U, do think that they are a cut above the rest and that's not necessarily true.
Lastly,(because I simply cannot remember all my realisations I had earlier today), is that family is everything. You may not like everyone in your extended family, lord knows I don't all the time, but you still can't cut them off. Distance yourself, converse less, but you can't and shouldn't burn whole bridges, at least not with people you're related to. Think about it, there are people out there with no relations in the world, who would kill to be in your position.
I supposed, the moral of the day is that tolerance is key. And for me, I just gotta speak up more and not be so quiet. I mean if I can't speak my mind with the people I'm supposed to be close to, who can I speak my mind to right?
Well, done a fair bit of reflection for today, and now I feel calm and at peace.
Good night children....
shini
Firstly, I'm going to make a few changes within myself, and in relation to how I behave towards certain people. I am going to be MORE forward and tell them how I feel and tell them what I want to do and not just boil and stew inside angrily. I always thought that communication is key and I never realised till now that I wasn't practicing what I was preaching. Well, all that's going to change! Only problem is that it takes some courage, and I just gotta summon that courage from somewhere. Good luck to me I guess!
Secondly, I am going to just accept people the way the are. People have good things about them and bad things about them and instead of bitching about it, I should just accept the bad things and remind myself of the good things. Of course I can try as much as possible to help them change the bad things, but in the event that I wimp out or they refuse to see my position on the matter, I will just let it be and forget it. No point harbouring all these negative feelings towards a person because its not good for the relationship or for me.
Thirdly, I realised also that education, while it is extremely EXTREMELY important for everyone, and believe me, I support that 100%, if you don't have the brilliant education or if, for example, you did not make it to university, its not the end of the world. I mean think about it, there are so many successful businessmen in the world who did not go to university. People in Singapore put so much of importance on going to the U, and my parents are one of them. But, not everyone CAN go to the U because there simply aren't enough places. That doesn't mean that those with degrees should think highly of themselves, or look down on those who didn't go to the university. I should amend what I wrote earlier. Not everyone can go to the LOCAL universities, because there aren't enough places. People, can still, down the road of their lives, enroll in a uni and get a degree. However, getting a degree is not the be all and end all. Our generation don't look down on those who don't go into the university, but people in the past did. Some people, now in their 30s 40s and 50s, who went to the U, do think that they are a cut above the rest and that's not necessarily true.
Lastly,(because I simply cannot remember all my realisations I had earlier today), is that family is everything. You may not like everyone in your extended family, lord knows I don't all the time, but you still can't cut them off. Distance yourself, converse less, but you can't and shouldn't burn whole bridges, at least not with people you're related to. Think about it, there are people out there with no relations in the world, who would kill to be in your position.
I supposed, the moral of the day is that tolerance is key. And for me, I just gotta speak up more and not be so quiet. I mean if I can't speak my mind with the people I'm supposed to be close to, who can I speak my mind to right?
Well, done a fair bit of reflection for today, and now I feel calm and at peace.
Good night children....
shini
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
FREAKING AMAZING!!!!!!!!
LOVE STORY (Taylor Swift) meets VIVA LA VIDA (Coldplay) - Piano Cello - by Jon Schmidt
and omg, check this out.
http://www.youtube.com/corycotton
can't put the video here but TRUST ME ITS WORTH CHECKING OUT.
Using my cousin's words, its some of THE sickest baskets EVER!!!!
ciao for now children!
Monday, June 1, 2009
Syney White
Been going through a chick flick phase. It started with Lovewrecked, because I hadn't watched it and I DO like Amanda Bynes. And on youtube, in the related videos sections, you see all these other movies in their various parts, so I just click click and watch! Anyway, came across the movie Sydney White which technically I have already watched. But I just felt like watching it again.
The movie's references to the fairytale Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs are ridiculously obvious. The main character's name is Sydney White! Her mother died when she was young and was raised by her dad and his fellow construction workers.So somewhat of a tomboy. Oh! Did I mention that they also incorporated the usual chick flick themes? Girl doesn't fit in anywhere, well at least not in a sorority house her mum was in, in college and so gets kicked out. Meets group of dorks, helps them better themselves, and along the way meets her boy of dreams, or should I say her Prince Charming called Tyler Prince! Of course there's the requisite bitch who's Miss Popular and Perfect who secretly check's the campus's Hot or Not list to make sure she's No.1(ie the fairest one of them all), the head of said sorority house called Rachel Witchburn! Ha! I just remembered the scene in the movie where all the pledges line up and Rachel with the huge Magnifying glass scruntinises all their faces and tells them what's wrong and she has something to say for everyone, except of course, our girl Sydney who has nothing wrong. So obvious I swear.
Oh! And the dorks or should I say dwarfs. There are of course 7.
1. Spanky-really really wants to have sex but is not really dreamy if you know what I mean
2.Shy/Bashful-talks through his hand puppet
3.Hypochondriac-very sweet with like a million allergies and a whole load of medical supplies
4.Sleepy-a Nigerian who after 3 years STILL hasn't gotten used to the reversed time in the US
5.Grumpy-Very angsty person who writes a blog. Very good with the IT too
6.Dopey-adorable Junior Tiger Guide who's having trouble with knots, thus preventing him from moving up to Tiger Guide, but always wins at poker, without knowing it.
7.Smarty-Older graduated student, trying to perfect a theory and is EXTREMELY smart. Big surprise from him in the end
So I think I would call this movie and mix of a loved fairytale and the typical chick flick. All the same, I do like it very much!
shini
The movie's references to the fairytale Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs are ridiculously obvious. The main character's name is Sydney White! Her mother died when she was young and was raised by her dad and his fellow construction workers.So somewhat of a tomboy. Oh! Did I mention that they also incorporated the usual chick flick themes? Girl doesn't fit in anywhere, well at least not in a sorority house her mum was in, in college and so gets kicked out. Meets group of dorks, helps them better themselves, and along the way meets her boy of dreams, or should I say her Prince Charming called Tyler Prince! Of course there's the requisite bitch who's Miss Popular and Perfect who secretly check's the campus's Hot or Not list to make sure she's No.1(ie the fairest one of them all), the head of said sorority house called Rachel Witchburn! Ha! I just remembered the scene in the movie where all the pledges line up and Rachel with the huge Magnifying glass scruntinises all their faces and tells them what's wrong and she has something to say for everyone, except of course, our girl Sydney who has nothing wrong. So obvious I swear.
Oh! And the dorks or should I say dwarfs. There are of course 7.
1. Spanky-really really wants to have sex but is not really dreamy if you know what I mean
2.Shy/Bashful-talks through his hand puppet
3.Hypochondriac-very sweet with like a million allergies and a whole load of medical supplies
4.Sleepy-a Nigerian who after 3 years STILL hasn't gotten used to the reversed time in the US
5.Grumpy-Very angsty person who writes a blog. Very good with the IT too
6.Dopey-adorable Junior Tiger Guide who's having trouble with knots, thus preventing him from moving up to Tiger Guide, but always wins at poker, without knowing it.
7.Smarty-Older graduated student, trying to perfect a theory and is EXTREMELY smart. Big surprise from him in the end
So I think I would call this movie and mix of a loved fairytale and the typical chick flick. All the same, I do like it very much!
shini
FINAL WARNING
Anymore cracks or "well-deserved" advice about me drinking from anyone and I'll give it to them.
I KNOW what I should do and not do. I'm not stupid. I read fairly extensively and I'm a worrier. Hence, I worry about BEING drunk, so then, obviously I make sure I don't go too far. And so far, as much as I can tell, I've only been drinking with people I can trust. AKA my MOTHER and my FAMILY.
I am not an alkie, nor will I become one. I am simply an 18-year-old EXPERIMENTING and testing the grounds and FINALLY having fun, LEGALLY. If the law doesn't bother with me then why should you! Scratch that. If my MOTHER, MY MOTHER, doesn't worry and lets me drink, why should you!!!
So I'm warning everyone. For the last time. I know what I'm doing and I am not stupid enough to push my limits. I don't need minders telling me that I'm too young or it doesn't look nice. Just because YOU didn't do it when YOU were my age, doesn't mean what I'M doing is wrong. So just don't.
I KNOW what I should do and not do. I'm not stupid. I read fairly extensively and I'm a worrier. Hence, I worry about BEING drunk, so then, obviously I make sure I don't go too far. And so far, as much as I can tell, I've only been drinking with people I can trust. AKA my MOTHER and my FAMILY.
I am not an alkie, nor will I become one. I am simply an 18-year-old EXPERIMENTING and testing the grounds and FINALLY having fun, LEGALLY. If the law doesn't bother with me then why should you! Scratch that. If my MOTHER, MY MOTHER, doesn't worry and lets me drink, why should you!!!
So I'm warning everyone. For the last time. I know what I'm doing and I am not stupid enough to push my limits. I don't need minders telling me that I'm too young or it doesn't look nice. Just because YOU didn't do it when YOU were my age, doesn't mean what I'M doing is wrong. So just don't.
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