Monday, April 18, 2011

I'm sorry but how pathetic is it that an essay can make me cry? Seriously? I mean I've never had an assignment make me so upset. Or rather my absolute inability to even UNDERSTAND the source I'm reading to do it. Worse? its due in like less than 24 hours. tomorrow by 5pm to be exact. and its 7.39 in the evening right now and I am on the 7th page of the source. I cannot understand it, how am i supposed to write an essay about my reaction to the damn source?! And okay, my fault for not paying attention in class but I scarcely think that listening to the lecturer repeat what's on the slides in an accent will actually help me. What do I do? This is going to pull EVERYTHING down. absolutely everything. They may be lenient during the mid-term test and for the essays but they will slaughter you in the finals! I'll be lucky if i get a C-! I can ACTUALLY fail A MODULE! in ARTS!? ohmygod i'm so so screwed. beyond any other time. and i do not appreciate my mother telling me not to get defensive when she says i must cut down on certain foods. if someone implies that you're fat, do you not get defensive? maybe its just me and i'm being over-sensitive but I do get tired of the fat jokes, digs, jibes and subtle for-your-own-good pieces of advice. LEAVE MY WEIGHT ALONE. its got ABSOLUTELY nothing to do with you. it really has nothing to do with you. unless i develop diabetes, high bp, heart disease, or some other diesase related to obesity (TOUCH/KNOCK WOOD), you have no right to BUG me about it. only AFTER that sort of thing happens, then are you allowed to. HELL, you can even say "i told you so" a million and one times. JUST NOT BEFORE. a downright pissed off and thoroughly upset shini