Hey Hey!! I've got 2 things I wanna air my opinions on.

Firstly, and I know this is kinda late, but I didn't feel like blogging till now, but the Liverpool vs Singapore FRIENDLY match, was painful. I'm not a specific fan of liverpool, but I usually support whoever it is I think the underdog. Well, not really, and not all the time. When I watch a match, if it s 2 teams I don't know very well, I'll support the team that, somehow, someway, gives off good vibes to me. Can't really explain it , but its NOT because the players are hotter.

So back to the match. I only watched the 1st half, where I very unhappily saw the 1st goal Liverpool made against Spore and the 5th goal. But believe me, that was enough to make me wail VERY LOUDLY. What was worse, was that everytime Liverpool scored, the WHOLE stadium cheered, since it was filled with Liverpool fans. I mean of course, its a friendly, and its meant for the Liverpool fans to be able to see their team play on home ground, but it can't do much for the Singaporean players. And okay, even though I know saying this will incur the wrath of TONS of liverpool fans, I don't think that it was very sportsmanly to push for the 6th goal, after completely thrashing the team of that country. I don't think it showed that the liverpool team was friendly, when they pushed and scored 5 goals. I mean, hello, Singapore didn't even score ONE goal, so how hard would it be for liverpool to score a win? 2-0 is still decent for them and it WILL be a win. What was with the extra 3 goals? The 5th one was especially bad ( only cuz I saw that one and the first one), but really, how it was created, was really painful. So i'm sorry if I offended any Liverpool fans, but that's just how I feel.

And now, the second thing I wanted to just mention is that the Reduced Shakespeare Company's Complete Works of Shakepseare, Abridged is simply BRILLIANT. I was laughing like ALL the time and I definitely did not expect the audience participation part. I think it made the whole experience even better. I absolutely recommend it. And its okay if you haven't READ all the 37 plays.
I'd elaborate on how much I enjoyed it and how it totally MADE my day, but i'm exhausted and i gotta wake up early and BE SEXCITED tmr, so I'm going to sleep now. so ciao babes

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shini

Continuation of Wall E

I finally finished watching Wall E, and oh my goodness, it is NOT a movie for kids. I got so stressed when I was watching the movie, like thinking, crap, is that the future?? Will we all be lazy and fat and live in a mega-humongous ship in space? And will all the machines revolt and control our lives? I was so FREAKED OUT! And the fact that the little plant, represented life, and the ability to sustain life. That one little plant stood for so much! And the "love" between Wall E and Eve, so adorable! I mean you're telling me that kids would get and understand all the hidden meaning behind the situation and story laid out? My senses were literally bombarded and tens of thoughts were flying through my mind, all incomplete.

I suppose in a sense, then, the movie IS for kids. They wouldn't read so much into the movie plot, like adults, young or old would. They wouldn't be freaked out by the possibilities of the future. They would be able to just, watch it, and get over it. I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT IT! I mean I'm blogging about it for goodness sake!

And can I just repeat HOW FREAKING ADORABLE Wall E is???? Like really!?? I mean I want one!
Sigh. Okay, the gushing will stop here. Going to continue watching tv now. Ciao

love love
shini

shoes and other apparel

I think my feet are not MEANT to wear shoes. Seriously. Let me explain. Every pair of shoes that I own, give me blisters. EVERY SINGLE PAIR. Whether they are new or old. My wonderful pair of clogs from Holland, which I bought when I was 10 years old in 2001, which STILL fit perfectly by the way, give me blisters. My newest pair of ballet flats, with the soft lining bought on sale from tangs, hurt me on a regular basis even though I wear them so often. I have this one pair of shoes that are horrendous. Pointy, emerald green, satin covered mules, low heel from Tangs, bought on sale, and fits, perfectly. I wore them for the first time to someone's housewarming, which i figured would be safe, since i just have to wear it from the car to the house and back. First of all, because of the HDB rules, we could only park in the white lots, of which, were gone, the ones nearest to the house. So we had to park REALLY far away. By the time I walked from the car to the house I had already developed like 4 blisters. But I figured, that I can probably handle the walk back, cuz it didn't seem that bad. Boy was I wrong. After the housewarming was over, and we were walking back,when we were about halfway there, I couldn't take it anymore and took off my shoes and waled the rest of the way back barefoot. Sure my feet were dirty, but they didn't hurt anymore! I have NEVER worn those shoes again. And don't think of it as a waste of good money, I got them really cheap. $9! from Tangs! They were only so cheap cuz it was the last pair and the size wasn't one that fit most people. I'm usually a 4. In UK brands, like Topshop or River Island, I'm a 3, sometimes, even a 2 and a half. its not very easy finding shoes that fit. Anyway, back to my original complaint. Since all my shoes give me blisters or just make my feet ache (my heels), and I have the UGLIEST feet in the world thanks to genetics, my father and those numerous blisters which leave marks, I think I'd really like to give up looking for comfy shoes that still LOOK nice. I feel like just buying comfy shoes and not caring about whether they look nice or not. Because I clearly have very strangely cut feet. Actually, they seem quite normal, short and wider in the front. Lots of people have my kind of feet! urgh.

Sigh. Even though I say, that I'll give up, I know I won't. Because those that know me, know that I LOVE shoe shopping. I'd LOVE glove shopping too, if I needed gloves, cuz everytime I go shoe shopping, I get to say, "your smallest size please". its so much more self-esteem-boosting than clothes shopping because I'm so darn plump and short, all the clothes look distorted on me. I especially HATE shopping for bottoms, like pants and skirts. ( i never purposely buy shorts on my own, i just get them from my mother). I hate it cuz my hips ad thighs are huge, so I'll need the pair that fits them, but I'm so short that the pair that does fit my body is waaaaaayyyyyy too long! So after I buy the pants, at the shop, I'll always have to got to my tailor to alter the length. its double the effort. Which is why I only buy jeans when i absolutely HAVE to. I didn't have a pair of black jeans, so i bought them in M'sia last year. And my previous 2 pairs of jeans, were given to me by relatives from overseas. (That's why I have a Levis pair). I NEVER buy skirts, cuz they always will look wrong on me( again the hip vs the length thing, and skirts can't be altered) and I simply don't like wearing skirts. Of course I have them, and quite a few, and I'll only wear them when I'm feeling confident and well, confident and only when I have nothing else to wear. And if I have to.

Just to be clear, I don't have a HUGE self-esteem problem. I mean I DO think I'm fat, or at least plump and anyone who's met me know I could lose some weight. and I will ALWAYS think I'm fat, cuz I really don't think I'll lose weight and be toned. HOWEVER, in the case that a miracle does happen and I summon up enough discipline to exercise strenuously and diet and I DO lose weight and tone up, I do think the self esteem issue will dry up. But to be clear, I don't have HUGE low self-esttem problem; I mean its quite under control. Usually I'm fairly confident and as Sister says, "thick-skinned" and will wear whatever I think looks good. And when those little voices start, I just turn my attention to something else and I'm back into a good mood. And I CAN take a compliment, when someone says that I look pretty, especially if I've actually spent TIME to look good, like doing my hair nicely (I usually don't care about my hair and focus more on my face). Its just that sometimes, when I see Sister and it hits me, how slim she looks and tall, or I see someone else, with a better body (and usually taller), I just get a little down. BUT BUT BUT! Nothing some comedy and hindi songs can't chase away. Or else sleep. Sleep works very well with me. If I'm angry with you, like really pissed off, let me sleep it off and I'll wake up, happy and everything will be forgiven. I swear. I'm quite good that way. So yeah.

I think this post is long enough. But just a few last thoughts. I truly do prefer to be barefoot than to wear shoes, which is part of the reason why I love the beach. My mother says that I should wear slippers in the house, so that I don't develop thick skin on my soles. I suppose my feet aren't very attractive, given my UBER-UGLY toes and blister marks and thick skin on my soles, but I think they really are quite solid and good. I'm feeling quite sleepy now, and I want to try and wake up int he morning to run, because I've realised that I will only run in the morning. I simply can't run in the evening. Well, no pressure, we'll just see if I DO wake up in time or not. Going to try "Liking my body" for a change. ciaor for now!


love love

shini

just gotta note this down quickly before i forget. damnit. forgot it. but i remembered the other one. what's with the starting reading off with Enid Blyton books? Like every kid, or at least of my age started off with them. nto much time here but i'm just noting this down, now so that i can go and sleep. Will elaborate tmr, and maybe will remember the other thing that i forgot. its like i was holding on the the thought for so long that wheni finalyy came in the right page, my brain couldn't hold on any longer and let the thought go. So annoying i swear. And that's exactly what it felt like I promise because as soon as the post page came up, the thought was gone. And I couldn't even remember anything related to it. Urgh. Okay, tired, and must sleep before the sun rises. Night night.

love
shini

Wall E

*yawns* hello hello children!

I watched the movie Wall E halfway today on Disney Channel before Sister and I left to go to our friend A's house. Yes we still have the Kids pack. If they had separated Disney from the rest of the Kids channels, it would be less of a problem, but we just can't let go of Disney. Everytime my parents ask Sister if we can get rid of the Kids pack, she always screams NO!!! By the way, Sister is 16 years old. I think Disney is useful for catching those happy, sappy, children friendly shows and movies, when you just want to get away from all the other sexually-charged programmes on the other channels. Okay, I'm using my words wrongly. Not "sexually-charged" persay, but you know, the hint of anything sexual. EVERY show has it. Except maybe those CSI type of shows. But still, you know what I mean. I don't really watch MTV (shocker I know, how old am I right?), but today, we just happen to turn it on and we were watching the MTV hits and they were showing all these hip-hop type of songs and I was watching the videos thinking, "why are the images shown so crude and lewd and vulgar? the dancing especially". The only video I saw that I liked was the Eminem one, Toy Soldiers. I'm probably considered conservative, even though if you see me dancing in a club, you might not think so, but yeah, sex and things related to it are EVERYWHERE! On the shows that are considered fiction anyway. They aren't all in the documentaries, or travel shows.

So Disney channel allows my mind to rest, in a sense, plus, I don't have to keep checking if my mother is in the room, because there aren't any kissing scenes and words like "bitch" and "asshole" and "bastard" and everyone's favourite, the F word( I have NEVER said it by the way, outloud anyway) aren't uttered and neither are the words "sex", and "make love". I swear I instantly become twitchy or at least more alert whenever my mother is watching whatever I'm watching.

Anyway, back to the movie Wall E. I haven't finished watching it but I already LOVE it. Wall-E is SOOOOOOO adorable! I mean he's my new favourite animated character! I know the movie's considered old, but I didn't see it when it came out okay. And what's so refreshing is that there' s barely any dialogue in the movie, so far anyway. Just actions mostly. "Actions speak louder than words"- cliched I know but I just HAD to put it in. And it was refreshing because I didn't have to see some annoying teenager on tv acting out the typical stories over and over again. I didn't have to feel jealous about the fact that, THAT teenager is on tv, in a movie and I'M not. Because there were no teenagers, and barely any voiceover talent needed! Plus the character is simply delightful. Tomorrow when I watch the whole movie, with Sister, I might post something else up k?

well, gotta go, feeling sleepy. Ta!

love love

shini

Scorpio

Comes across as a very lucky, happy person. Doesn't let much get them down. Has a lot of friends which they hardly ever encounter problems with. Treat their friends like family. Very good at lasting in long term relationships, although sometimes they come across as careless for their partner. Generous but can spot out impurities in anyone, which some people may find bitchy. Likes to think they are intelligent. EXTREMELY vain. Very sexual, which they are not at all embarrassed about. Easily amused. Usually has a nice smile. Cheeky. Funny. Little common sense. Has very strong desires in life. Outgoing. Not many people get the chance to see the REAL them. Attractive. Believes in destiny more than karma.

From Facebook.
OMG. Seriously. A lot of it seems true. Of course not all of it is nice la, can't expect that. But whoa! I know the "outgoing" isn't true though. Not saying which others aren't true. Sigh. I just had to put it here too, for those who don't have FB (some really don't!). Well, slowly going through Gossip Girl season 2 (i know i know, I'm really really late, but I simply couldn't be bothered till now. Now I know why I loved it in the first place!) Although omg how do these people have so much energy to do their school stuff and plot and plan and party at the same time??? I'd be exhausted!

Okay, quite sleepy now, going off. Ciao bella! ( so wrong I know but *shrugs*)

love love
shini

Just finished watching Red Thread. The ending was definitely unexpected. Reeeeeeeeaaaalllllly unexpected. A little disturbing too. But generally a happy ending where it mattered I guess. Still love Adrain Pang! And can I just say that Patrick Toh speaks really well? His enunciation is almost flawless! I quite like him as an actor too! And the woman who plays Dora, very cute when she's angry and very good too!

Sigh. A bit sad its over. Was fairly entertaining for a while. I think I will watch the season 2 of Sayang Sayang. Feeling very supportive of local shows right now. Looking foward to the new season of Singapore Idol too; just to see the new batch of talent that dare to enter and put themselves up for nationwide humilation. Don't get me wrong, I think its very cool and brave of them to put themselves out there. And I'm excited to see the kind of new talent there is. Its just that, there already ARE good and talented musicians in spore. I'll be honest. With all my "support local acts and shows" spiel, you'd think I'm with all the local bands. I'm not. I don't even know any, except Electrico and Jack&Rai, the latter whose music I really do like. Haven't gotten their album yet though. I suppose I really AM a hypocrite then, since I don't support local music. Its just that, well, how do I find out about them? Like hear their songs to see if I like their style? I suppose I could go to some gigs, if I knew where they were but, a) My mother would wonder what the hell is wrong with me and prob would say no and b) will I even like them? I admit, I heard Jack&Rai when I was at the Esplanade, you know that stage area thingy near the Promenade? I was surprised at their style, and even more surprised that I liked it. sigh. Maybe I should go with S for those local gigs, I think she goes for them anyway.

I'm a little upset about something. Actually quite upset. The thing is, I can't write it here, or tell anyone, because its a little..no alot...very very enbarrassing. Well, the previous sentence isn't true, I did tell someone, my sister. But the thing about my sister is that whenever she hears about this problem, (this problem occurse QUITE frequently), she just goes "why do you keep having this problem?" and that's it. No "its okay", or "is it very bad" or even "do you want to tell mama?". Nothing. So, as you can tell, she doesn't really help very much. Sigh. I really can't do anything about it. It just keeps happening again and again and before I know it, I find another problem. But like I said, Can't write it here. Maybe I'll go write it in my real diary. Where the more personal and private problems are aired. I swear, if anyone read my diary, I would probably die. Well and truly. Then again, if I can find someone who can read my handwriting IN the diary, I'd probabaly congratulate him/her because the handwriting is especially messy and illegible. You know what, I think I'm gonna go and do just that. Ta for now

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shini

two posts consecutively is weird I know but I just gotta say this. I think that having a blog has helped me a little I think to reveal more about myself. I mean yes its just on the net and people don't really read my blog but still. I have talked about lots of things on this blog, about myself. Really depending on this thing. Not very healthy I think, but whatever. gotta go

This is from my Astrology application for today in fb. I totally forgot about it till now. Check it out.
Darshini,
Challenging developments involving friends, associations or group activities are bringing you to be aware of the impact that others have on your life, for good or ill. You'll want to decide which friends to keep, and who you need to grow beyond.

Amazingly true or what!

TV shows

MJ doesn't have lupus. Bloody wiki. Just thought I should right some things that I had posted yesterday.

Anyway, moving on to my real purpose of this post.

I JUST FINISHED WATCHING THE FINAL EPISODE OF HARPER'S ISLAND AND IT WAS THE BOMB!!!!!!!

(I thought I might try the increase the font thing but every time I do that, the bloody font doesn't decrease, so I just stuck to capital letters; I think it achieved the same effect I wanted though)

I hate the fact that when the "Mystery Event of the Year" started, people were so busy with whatever they were doing that no one but me followed it. So in the end, I had NOBODY to discuss the show with! That kind of killed my enthusiasm a bit. I mean it seemed that Channel 5 went to some effort to bring the show in on the same day as it was shown in the US and I had noone to scream about it with! Sigh. And now, when the show has ended, with such an UNEXPECTED ENDING, i STILL have noone to discuss it with. Its driving me nuts I tell you. Oh and if anyone's wondering why I only just saw the finale today and not yesterday, well its because I went out last night with extended family so I taped it and watched it today in the afternoon, when no one would have woken up from my screaming. And yes, when I watched it today, I did scream. A few times actually. But I think our neighbours are used to it. The screaming I mean. I'm quite sure they can HEAR it because our walls are quite thin I think. At night, in my bed, I can hear like sweeping sounds and footsteps, directly above my head, where the ceiling is.

The deal with t.v. shows is that when you have someone to discuss the show with, the experience is all the more entertaining. I mean people bond over tv shows. This is why drama serials have such a hold on audiences, more so than films. Reason being that when the film is over, that's it. We never find out if that happy couple at the end really lives out their life or if something happens to them. Whereas for serials, they can go on and on and on, especially hindi ones. I'm talking about generations growing up and like tens of years passing. I know that for myself, if I'm talking to someone new, while trying to establish a link, I'd ask abut tv shows, to see if we have similar interests or not. Usually guys don't want to discuss the shows whereas the girls love to. Sigh. I think the lack of people I know watching harper's island has killed my buzz.

Thank goodness my dad and my sis watch Red Thread with me. Otherwise, tomorrow's finale will be quite a letdown too. And YES, I watch red thread. I know its a local production and people these days laugh at local productions, but for the first time, in a long time, has a local production been produced, as an original and not a copy, and it looked fairly interesting. Plus, Adrian Pang is in the show, and he's my favourite local actor. Yes, some of the acting could do with a lot of improvement and so could their diction, but its a nice show! And they managed to keep the secrets all the way till the end, which makes me wonder how on earth will they reveal all by tomorrow. The way I figure it is local shows, aren't fabulous. Really they aren't. But the people who make the shows, have to earn money too, and if all it takes, is me sitting down to watch for half an hour, then that's not asking for much right? I mean shouldn't we support the local shows? My mother doesn't think so. But nevermind. I personally can't wait to watch the finale tomorrow, and whoever wants to laugh at that, can do so, since I don't care! humph.

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shini

Sorry but...

Okay I know this had been talked about to death but I just really need to write something out so I can see it in black and white.

I've been feeling guilty about something people might find trivial. I've been feeling guilty that only after MJ died, is when I want to listen to his songs. Like those fans who become fans after the guy died. The thing is, I don't even know why I'm feeling guilty because I'm NOT one of those people. I never EVER hated Michael, or made fun of him and quite truthfully, I don't even believe 100% that he did commit those horrendous crimes he was charged with. Seriously I SWEAR. And I ALWAYS liked his music. ALL of it. Whenever I heard a song, which wasn't very often in the past, I immediately grooved to it. I mean he's the first artist I could even remember when I was a kid. I didn't listen to his songs on a regular basis and I didn't buy his cds because A; I thought he'd be alive longer and I'd have time to fully appreciate his music both old and new(and he has some new music coming out apparently) soon enough and B; I really thought that my dad had the cds (sadly it turns out he doesn't. Mostly because his music was played all the time that there was no need for the cds. Thank god my auntie has some!) Now I have to resort to downloading his music and I don't even know where or how to do it because I usually just buy cds. But his cds are apparently all sold out and anyway, they'll cost a bloody bomb.

I thought at some point, I should wiki MJ and oh my gosh, his page is ridiculously long. According to the wiki page on him, he suffered from vitiliga and lupus, he has donated like BILLIONS to 39 charities, his children have extremely unimaginative names of Prince 1, Paris and Prince 2 aka Blanket, he broke a number of Guinesse World Records and he had a terribly abusive childhood. I don't know how much all of it is true, but all I know is when I was reading the page, my jaw kept dropping and dropping. He was the kind of celebrity that was the best. Why? Because he was so strange and weird both in physical appearence and behaviour and yet he was ridiculously kind and gentle and again on the other hand a total and absolute superstar that had passionate and die-hard fans all over the world and also negative and almost haters all over the world too. Whatever it is, he really was amazing tot he point that people are STILL talking about him, like 2 weeks after his death. Sigh. I can't even promise that this will be the last post on him because you really never know with me. Well, I'm tired, so I'll look up his songs tmr (after all, I have all the time in the world right?), so ciao for now babes!

love love

shini

A few things

First of all, Woooooo Hoooo!!! I reached 100 posts!!!! Cool huh? Okay its a little silly but I just felt like I should mention this fact. I'm quite proud of myself!

Okay, now that THAT is out of the way, I'm going on tho the next few things I want to say.

I AM EXHAUSTED!

Today I had the mandatory health check-up at NUS's UHC at 9.30 am. I don't know what possesed me to choose that timing. Bloody stupid I think. I was so anxious that I'd miss the appointment that I actually had a dream about it, before I woke up! And in the dream I DID miss the appointment and i was absolutely wailing about it! The stupid dream was so realistic that I think as I was sleeping I could feel myself freaking out! The suddenly I woke up, and realised that I was still early. Then of course I went back to sleep and only got up at the last possible minute. So I rushed out of the house at 9.05, and I mean really rushed. I didn't even do the dishes left by the rest of the family earlier today now did I make my bed. I REALLY didn't want to be late for the appointment. The minute I left the house I realised that damn I didn't have the back gate key!

See, my condo is really near NUS. I have a straight bus and the part of NUS that I needed to go to was like 4 stops away. However, the place where I need to take the bus from is just beyond the back gate of my condo and the gate, is of course locked. Every resident is issued a key to unlock the gate and up till I think last year I had one of the copies that my dad made. This year on the other hand, my sister started at JC and she has to take the bus from the back gate bus stop on a daily basis so I gave the key to her. In the morning, since she's always so rushed, she forgot to leave the key behind and the original key my dad had because he goes jogging by the canal and the canal is also just beyond the back gate.

So in the morning, I was kinda stuck. Walking all the way around to the back gate bus stop, via the FRONT gate is a real hassle, but then again, I really have no choice. Luckily, or should I say, beugvaan was listening to my mind and sent along this guy. We crossed paths and I just stopped, wondering if he was going by the back gate path or not. I waited to see if he would turn into the path. HALLELUJIA he was! I started sprinting to get just behind him so that when he reached the gate to open it, I'd be behind him and I could get through! My shoes were soft so He didn't hear me running ( I think), but after a while, when I could slow down, my breathing was quite heavy (like duh! suddenly running like that!) and he turned around, seeming quite surprised to see a person there. More specifically the one he walked past earlier, going in the opposite direction. But whatever. In the end, we were both going to NUS, so yeah. But omg, so much of stress just for a little check-up!

And sadly, when I got weighed, I found out that I didn't lose any weight. Sigh. I always thought those weighing machines at home were suspicious. On the other hand, I truly am 1.48m, not the 1.475 I thought I was! Which is a relief because I'd been telling ppl that 1.48 is my height. Well after the check up, it seemed everything was normal, didn't even have to take a blood test. The urine test was quite embarrassing because I gave like 5ml of sample. I had drunk a lot of water in the morning, but it just hadn't been processed yet! Luckily they didn't say anything about the amount. Now, I'm very tired. My arms, hurt, though not as much as some the others who went bouldering yesterday. Didn't do THAT much climbing. Got too tired! and the soles of my feet hurt. And my fingers! And my shoulders. But the aches are good aches, cuz I USED those muscles. Makes me feel good about it. Luckily my legs don't really hurt like when I do thigh exercises. Those will hurt so much that I can't even walk properly, and don't even talk about going up and especially down stairs! Sigh. Mother making me do her errands for her.

And my weekend is used up. Okay, now I'm tired and I've cooled down. Going to find something to eat. ciao!

shini

Magic and other things

I had intended to write about something when I first logged on but something else occurred to me when I was talking to my mother.

My mother is always extremely suspicious of me with guys. As in, she always puts on this suspicious face whenever she hears me talking to a guy on the phone or if I messaging a guy or if I'm meeting a guy and asks, " Who's that? I don't want any nonsense you hear me!". ALWAYS.

I suppose she's just looking out for my welfare and as a mother its only natural that she's worried about me falling prey to jerks. However, she just doesn't seem to realise 2 things. The first being that I think I'm smart and guarded enough not to fall for any ol asshole. And the second being that hello!! This is me we're talking about! I've managed to not even come close to having a relationship (r/s) in the 6 years since I've started secondary school. She thought I was safe in sec school because it was all girls, but since JC started, she's like been on tenterhooks! And for no reason whatsoever because all the guys I know are just good friends to me! I can't even imagine them in any other way! So you can understand how frustrated I feel when I causally mention that I'm meeting a very good (guy) friend of mine to like watch a movie, alone and she just completely erupts, even though I've known him for 2 and a half years and we really and truly will ever be good friends! I mean seriously, I'm not her! I wasn't called "heartbreaker" when I was in school (she totally was; she found out like 30 years later at a reunion) and I'm not even a smidgen as flirtatious as she is (note: is and not was). Sigh. She really need a chill pill.

Anyway, on to what I had come online for. Magic. I was re-reading this book by Diane Wyne Jones, called Charmed Life, and like finished it in 2 hours or so because is quite thin and it occurred to me that us humans seem very very interested in the idea of people having magic powers. The books and tv shows and movies that have magic involved in them, off the top of my head are like, Harry Potter, Charmed, Sabrina the Teenage Witch, Bewitched, and some others ( I did say off the top of my head) and I don't know I guess I just mean me because I am totally interested in all of them! Like there are different ways of portraying magic and somehow linking that with our real world. In Harry Potter, people use spells and potions and most need wands as a tool through which they conduct their magic through. They HAVE magic in their blood but they simply use the wand to be more precise I assume. Of course the magical community has to be hidden from the real world, the Muggles which is a concept often used with regards to magic. In Charmed, the 3 sisters each have a special power of their own, and later the 4th sister too. But there still is a magical community and a need to keep the magic a secret. They also use spells and potions but no wands. Interesting huh? Same with Sabrina the Teenage Witch, she points and uses spells but no wands. And again, must be a secret.

However this other book that I happened to re-read, was different. They didn't use wands and they didn't point. They didn't mention potions. Magic was being used all around them, like it was normal. But that doesn't mean that normal people, people without magic don't exist. They do. They exist side by side with the witches, warlocks, enchanters, necromancers, clairvoyants, and whatnot. Kids are taught normal lessons as well as magic lessons. The most powerful ingredient and most dangerous is dragon's blood. Very Very rare people who have 9 lives, hold a Government position and ensure the magical community toe the line. These people have 9 lives because their doubles in the other worlds, for some reason don't exist and all the other doubles are combined into one person. Yes, there are other worlds in this book. Which somehow helps to explain the possible existence of our normal real world and the world that exists in the book. I'm muddling myself up. You should go read it. Its really not like any other book about magic that I've ever read. And I also think believing in magic, whatever kind, is good for us. A little mystery never hurt anyone!

love love

shini

Sports

I'm not a sports person. Truly I am not. The main reason as to why I am not is because I am simply not good in sports. I don't excel in them. At all. I LIKE certain sports, where I'm average or I just for some weird reason, I like it, like badminton or like captain's ball. Badminton right, I think if I practice I can be quite alright. As it is now, I am very VERY bad at it. Ask anyone who's ever played with me.

However the interesting thing is that I don't HATE sports. I still play them, like in a team. I mean I don't go out and organise sporting activities with friends, unless its badminton and if I do its proabably to force myself to lose weight and just DO some exercise. What I like to believe is that even though I don't play sports well ( this is alike a HUGE understatement), I make up for it in enthusiasm. If you want me to cheer you on, I so totally can do that. If you need people to makeup a team, I'll do it. HOWEVER, IF YOU WANT TO WIN, THEN YOU CANNOT ASK ME TO PLAY, because I'm bad at it. Whatever the game may be, I am bad at it. So if I find an interesting sport, especially something I've never done before, like climbing or abseiling, or archery, I'd totally try it and be actually quite excited about it. No expectations on how well I do of course!

shini

P.S. anyone know how long an ant bite's effects on one's foot lasts? My foot is killing me!

random nonsense

I felt like typing out something but I really have nothing to talk about and ponder about. Yes, my head is pretty much an empty hole right now. I feel so bad about not reading the newspaper AT ALL. I have no idea why I don't read the newspaper, I mean its not like I am too busy or anything. I guess I just have to be disciplined about it and do it. Can't let my brain go can I?

Speaking of letting go, something I want to just mention. I think when anyone goes for camps, any kind of camps, whether they be in secondary school or university, they have to sort of re-wire their brain, especially if they don't really like camps. They gotta let themselves relax and be willing to do anything. Well not ANYTHING, but almost anything. I learned this at camp recently. I relaxed and let myself be up for anything, and basically not be so frigid. Of course I still have to work on the talking to other people I don't know thing, you know, the making new friends thing; but I'm working on it. In our family, my sister is the extrovert and I'm the more introverted one. Which is a little weird because I'm supposed to be the older one. Then again, I don't think age affects people's personalities.

okay now I'm just babbling. urgh, I'm hungry, well not hungry per say, but just feel like eating something. Now I just gotta decide on savoury or sweet. Sigh. I'm never going to lose weight at this rate.

You know what I'm going to do? On monday, I'll attempt to wash the floors. Kitchen and living room. Never done that before, but there's always a first time for everything I say! I also thought of dancing. Since no one is going to be home anymore these days (thank god!), I can continue dancing, maybe even come up with routines. Note, I'm talking about bollywood songs, not the usual pop/rock, because I'm really hopeless with hip pop and other types of dances. This way, the dancing is some sort of exercise, but I'm having fun doing it! That's what I figured anyway.

I'm quite sleepy now but I"m waiting for 3 am to talk to a friend of mine, about something recent, and I have to wait till so late because she'll apparently be out till then. The girl is 2 years younger than me and she's out till 3! My own mother doesn't think I can take care of myself , but she thinks I'm perfectly capable of taking responsibility of my sister and her friends! urgh. Okay, going to get something to eat now. ciao for now

shini

Angels and Demons

I will do this very quickly because my laptop is dying and I'm too lazy to go and get the wire from the room and plug it in. My brief thoughts on the camp I JUST came back from.

-Very fast-paced, packed chock-full wiht activities
-the activities mostly were ones that I didn't really feel too uncomfortable about, which surprised me because of the warnings I had from another friend who went for another camp earlier.
-Wasn't sure if I would be able to click with my og members, but surprisingly, I could.
-The guys in my group were so protective and nice and sweet towards us girls, always looking out for us.
-MY HOUSE WON!!!!!!AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!
-I gave it my all, I truly did, I mean I had my special monthly friend visiting me while I took part in those water games, even the ones at the beach.
-I got to do things I always wanted to do either for the first time, or again. Like go swimming at the beach, clubbing and drinking, staying ina room with like 5 girls.
-It truly amazed me that I could function everyday with like 3 hours of sleep.
-I totally shed a few tears when the house i/cs were giving their goodbye speeches, because for some reason I always start tearing whenever I see someone else crying.
-made new friends, ones I think I'll be meeting quite often,( OWEEK ANYONE?)
-OMG I TOTALLY LOST 2KG LA!(sadly, there's a tub of ben&jerry's chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream in the freezer, with literally my name on it and I can feel the rumblings of a hungry person, sounds I've become even more well-accquainted with these past few days.
-have got some injuries, cuz I fell down once and grazed my knee, plus sand abrasions, not to mention the fact that my WHOLE FREAKING BODY HURTS.
-my family actually missed me! mostly because I don't go for camps very often. Well all that's gonna change soon! thinking of going for socio camp.
-my new chapter has officially started, with new people, and new events and activities. I just gotta get out of my shell. FAST.

okay, can't think of anymore, because, I'm exhausted through and through. so before hte laptop dies on me, without this entry being posted up, I'm going off now. Ciao children! Will write again tomorrow!

love,
shini