Hello hello!

Yes I know its been absolute AGES since I've blogged and yeah I've sort of slacked in terms of maintaining the original intentions of HAVING a blog. Truth is, I've just been a bit busy and (I don't know why I'm writing as if I'm talking to someone; no one READS this thing anymore) anyway, stuff's been going on.

Anyhoo, I was just thinking about a couple of things. I mean okay, I have had more than a few things on my mind, this is just whatever's at the top.

Mistakes. Everybody makes them, either consciously or unconsciously. They make them all the time. Thing is, when is the line where you can't forgive the mistake? When apologising and attempting to make up for it, just isn't enough? There's actually a legal definition of the word "mistake". I'm not going to go into the legal definition and the dictionary definition. Anyone can look a word up.

My question is, when is the mistake too big, that you can't ever take it back?

I was watching Bachana Ae Haseeno, and for those of you who don't want a spoiler, please skip this part. Raj leaves Radhika at the altar, too much of a coward to tell her that he can't marry her. Leaving someone at the altar, is absolutely terrible. Especially when you love the person, when the only reason for not marrying her is that you just don't want to be married. He goes back much later, to apologise and ask for forgiveness, and she initially does not. I don't blame her, that was an absolute awful thing to happen to anyone. Eventually she forgives him, because hating him has worn her down. For her own sake she forgives him. And mama was watching this movie with me and she mentioned something about mistakes as well. Like that even at work, her boss said something like "Everyone makes mistakes. But look at the kind of mistake that's made!" Some mistakes are too big to be forgotten and forgiven.

I suppose we have the law for the classification of mistakes. However, things like adultery is not punishable by law, though it is morally wrong. So what is the line then, where is it I mean?

Truthfully, I have no idea. This is obviously something that we decide for ourselves, whenever events happen to us. I suppose one way of looking at them is to think, " If I had made such a mistake, would expect to be forgiven? Would I be able to forgive myself?" I guess that's one way of figuring it out.

shini

I KNOW i'm a slob. I know that. The whole freakin world knows that. And you know, I'm perfectly aware of the fact that I'm not the only person living in the house. Really, I do know that.

But you know what, its MY stuff. Its messy, yes, but I know EXACTLY where everything is and even if I don't know exactly where it is, I know where I'd find it. Just because YOU like things the way YOU do them and much prefer not to see my mess, in MY room, doesn't mean you can move all my things around and not TELL me. And hey, even if you tell me and I say no, don't move my stuff, I need it there, I don't have time now to rearrange everything, you still don't listen and do it anyway. I know I'm supposed to be grateful and glad that now I have full use of my study table but frankly, I've always hated that table and I have stopped studying there. Its not conducive for me to study, I need space for the laptop and the books and its too high and cramped. I never sit there.

I'm sorry but I'm just not grateful for everything looking neat and tidy because I didn't put the things away. It may come as a shock to you but when I actually DO put things away, I take pride in doing it. I like knowing where everything I own is. I don't like you putting everything away, and Now I dont know where my stuff is. All the little things I want to keep, that I remember? You just throw. And its not fair. My WorldMUN stuff, I have no idea where it is. You said its up there. WHERE? I can't believe I'm upset about this but I am. When I do put my things away, I like doing it. I hate not knowing where all my things are.

Simply Rahat!

I always blog after a concert or something and that's not going to change.

I went for "Simply Rahat" a concert by Ustad Rahat Fateh Ali Khan at Suntec Convention Hall and BOY DID I ENJOY IT!!

It was so so awesome and what made it even BETTER was the fact that I knew almost all the songs that he sang! I was sitting there and I realised that a lot of the songs that I love, are sung by him. I just love his voice and what he can do with his voice and the fact that he does hindi film songs as well as Qawwali songs just tells you his amazing range of ability.

The set was extremely simple, just the stage with the musicians. Rahat and his backup vocals and the tabla players were all seated on carpets on the floor with the other musicians around them, either standing or in chairs. He didn't have like a fancy programme or whatever, it was just him singing the songs. What I loved was that after it was quite apparent that the audience was a bit sedate, he actually very politely told us that we're quite quiet and its nice for the musicians to hear response from the audience, so they know whether they're doing it well or not and I was glad because I didn't know what kind of a performer he was so I too as an audience member didn't really get into the full groove of it till he said that. After that, the audience was quite quite appreciative which I like. As I've said before, audience behaviour is a big thing with me and bad behaviour or unappreciative behaviour can ruin a night for me. He sang some of my absolute favourites like Main Jahan Rahoon, Sajda, and Dil To Baccha Hai Ji as well as O Re Piya. I was so happy he sang the Qawwali number, Mera Piya Ghar Aaya!

You can see though when he was singing the ghazals and the qawwali songs,that its more challenging but also that he enjoys it more than the hindi film songs. And when the performer is enjoying the performance itself, that too makes me happy! I mean he was smiling and genuinely having fun!

The only thing I regret is not being able to understand Hindi though because he did the ghazals and when he was singing them, like people were responding and Mama was laughing and enjoying it because she understood but I didn't so I just focused on the music part and not the words. So that did make me feel a little sad but Mama told me some of what he was saying so that was okay. I wouldn't say I'm a great expert on music but I like listening to it and I like to dance so music's important for dancing. So when he does those difficult bits in the Qawwali songs and ghazals, I'm genuinely impressed because I've never seen anyone do it so fast! I can't even imagine someone doing chakars to the beat he makes! *chakars: the spins in kathak* Sigh. I had a glorious time honestly, except the part where he was singing Mast Qalandar, the last song and like people were leaving, obviously because they heard Tere Mast Mast Do Nain. I mean yes it was past midnight but COMEON you already have to pay midnight charge, just stay for the last song proper and not OFFEND the artist! I can't stand it when people leave before the performer's done. Plus, the last bit was amazing and so fun because he was going so fast and it was so upbeat!

Sigh. ridiculous. and RUDE.

anyway, I'm quite tired but that's my gushing done about Rahatji's show.It was fun fun fun and my seats were pretty great considering the low price and hey, awesome vocals and technology means that I could hear EVERYTHING even though I was so far away so HA!

I'm so happy:)

shini

I know I haven't blogged in ages but its mostly because I didn't feel there was anything TO blog about. You'd probably know that if something was bothering me or if I was upset or pissed off, I'd blog about it to let of steam. However, things have been so so lovely that I didn't have to.

Well, not everything. But that's not my issue to tell or blog about so I'll just say that I'm there for my friend and I'll always be.

Moving on, I feel like I should at least briefly mention something about the new school year starting for me in a week's time. Its going to be my third year, (THIRD YEAR CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?) and I have quite a bit depending on it. Reason being that my CAP has to be pulled up from a 3.13 to a 3.5 by the end of my third year. I know I said I'd be okay if I didn't do honours but honestly, who are we kidding? I'm SCREWED if I don't do honours and I don't just mean at home. If I want to work in ANY ministry, or government institution, I'm going to need that bloody honours. Yes it calls for another year of paying fees but hell, I need to do it. Thing is, if I need to pull up my grade so much, and its been so dismal for so long, I need to like get all As for all my modules this sem. And surprise surprise I have to be doing a stats module as well as one on international political economics. In case you didn't know (this blog was after the horrible year of 2008), econs is not my best subject. I failed for 2 years doing it in jc and through a tuition teacher and a helluva lot of writing, as well as some praying and a bucket load of luck, I somehow managed the miracle of getting a B for it in A levels. Doesn't sound like much I know but for me, changing the U to a B, IS a miracle. So anyway, the damn subject caused me much stress and pain for the whole 2 years I was studying it.

And now, through some persuasion from my friend, I WILLINGLY choose a module with the word economics in it, a level 3000 module, in the semester that I have to DO UNBELIEVABLY WELL IN. Sigh. Why did I do it? Well, I had looked at my other option, Human Rights and Ethics or something like that, and checked out its exam paper and needless to say, the economics paper seemed a lot more do-able. Lord, I really hope I kick myself in the ass and do well this semester. I HAVE to be a hermit and not go out and do all my readings because I'm doing ALL level 3000 modules. The thing is, some of my close friends are finally coming to NUS and I want to hang out with them there. And yes, I'm going for Bollyfest. And yes, a close friend is coming down late August and I want to go out with him too. And yes, my best friend said I should really go back to Bollywood dance (if they'll have me) and do that too. So how? Well I guess that means a real cutback on all the other things. I'm GOING to do this, because I have to and because I need to and because I BLOODY WELL CAN. I've basically slacked off for 2 years in NUS and I really should stop now. One year doesn't sound like a lot of time to pull up my grade, but I'm going to at least TRY.

Okay I don't know how this became a ranting session because I was supposed to talk about how excited I am to go back to school and start my good-girl campaign and read and do my work. And also the fact that there's a STARBUCKS on campus makes my life infinitely more awesomer(since I've been asking for it since school STARTED for me) also makes me excited. Finally, just seeing my school friends, learning, participating and making new friends make me excited, especially with my own personal campaign. Oh, okay see, I did manage to say what I'm excited about. Sigh. Well, I think that's enough for now. I have something else to rant about but , this isn't supposed to be Rants of a Hormonal Person is it now? Okay, I'm going off, don't want to be late. Ciao my bellas and keep smiling!

love,

shini

Bloody storm

I am rather disappointed.

There was supposed to be the Lunar eclipse, the longest EVER and the moon is SUPPOSED to be reddish-orange from the lack of light and you're supposed to be able to view it.

Being in Singapore unfortunately means that even when you put an alarm and WAKE UP at 3 am and go down to see the moon, its so cloudy and windy that you can't see anything but clouds and get rather scared from the wind.

That's exactly what happened to me. On one hand, the couple of minutes I was down there, walking around the entire block looking up for the moon and only seeing the clouds, it was quite serene. The wind was something to behold though for me, because it was REALLY windy! and the trees were swaying and everything! I was getting cold and scared so I went back up and of COURSE just before I got into the lift I had to remember that in Paranormal Activity, the spirit thingy usually acted up around 3 something in the morning. So of course when I got to my door, I was a little terrified to actually enter.

Viewing literally the "calm before the storm" was at least an experience because it made the howling and the window-shaking even more scary because I felt the wind. So even though I missed out on seeing our orangey-red moon, I still had a little bit of an experience. And now I gotta get some sleep before I have to go and fetch my mum from the airport.

loves,

shini

Excuse the foul language

I realise that you worry. That's your job. Apparently when your daughter is 52 kg and only 1.48m tall, she's clearly overweight and needs to be told to stop scarfing down the chips and get to the damn gym. And you're so so right. The thing is, if you knew your daughter well enough, you'd also realise that she's not stupid, she's doing it while being fully aware of her actions and its a damn CHOICE. She knows she has to go to the gym, and even if you don't believe it, she fully intends to go. She just needs some down time from gallavanting about and a BREAK from socialising to get her head straight. You would also realise that she's quite, no in fact VERY insecure about her figure and weight; she just hides it extremely well and frankly is too lazy to REALLY do anything about it. She figures one should be confident of how one looks, NO MATTER what you look like. Inside though, she really really hates her body, DEEP DEEP inside, and wishes she had her sister's skinny flat tummy. So when you go on about how unhealthy she is, how she'll get diabetes from being overweight, and when you question her about her BMI, it does hurt.

A LOT.

She doesn't eat chocolates; not much of a sweet tooth.
She was brought up on water not Coke.

She just has a thing for chips. Junk food. basically salty and fried food/snacks.
YES its bad, very very VERY bad. She knows this. Somehow she missed out one bad habit and it turned into a monster of a flaw. She has tried cutting down and will do so. She KNOWS she has this very very bad habit and its not good for her. She feels guilty enough.
Cliched as it sounds, this bad habit makes her happy(going down very dangerous territory here I know) but she also knows that its an illusion and there are other ways to be happy. She will persevere and stop this bad habit of chips.
She just asks you not to go complete commando on her and make her feel like a HUGE FAT LAZY GROSS SLOB THAT WILL NEVER GET A JOB BECAUSE SHE'S FAT AND DOES NOT PRESENT A GOOD IMPRESSION.

Please. I mean she already feels bad enough that she's not going to do Honours and YOU have your bloody 2nd Lower Class Hons and YOU have your bloody MA. She really doesn't need to be told that she's going to get diabetes and never get a good job because she's fat and does not give off a good impression. She's worried enough about her supremely AVERAGE future ahead of her and saddened enough about it without YOU coming in and making it worse. Just because YOU go and jog regularly does NOT give you the right to PREACH to her about being healthy. Unless of course consuming copious amounts of alcohol EVERY WEEK is healthy then by all means, go ahead and PREACH.

Otherwise, SHUT YOUR GOB AND LEAVE HER ALONE. Yes I'm intelligent, yes its a stupid choice to make but you know what? Its my FUCKING choice and it has NOTHING to do with YOU. Unless I'm fucking OBESE, leave my BMI out of our conversation because I still HAVE TIME TO TURN THE FUCKING CLOCK AROUND and get healthy. If my MOTHER can do it, SO BLOODY CAN I.


P.S. I sincerely apologise about the foul foul language but I just couldn't control it any longer. Please avert your eyes and please excuse me. I'm currently in an extremely bad mood.


Because really, making your daughter cry about her bloody eating habits, lack of exercise and basic fattiness has to be at the top of the list of Parenting 101 doesn't it?

I'm sorry but how pathetic is it that an essay can make me cry? Seriously? I mean I've never had an assignment make me so upset. Or rather my absolute inability to even UNDERSTAND the source I'm reading to do it. Worse? its due in like less than 24 hours. tomorrow by 5pm to be exact. and its 7.39 in the evening right now and I am on the 7th page of the source. I cannot understand it, how am i supposed to write an essay about my reaction to the damn source?! And okay, my fault for not paying attention in class but I scarcely think that listening to the lecturer repeat what's on the slides in an accent will actually help me. What do I do? This is going to pull EVERYTHING down. absolutely everything. They may be lenient during the mid-term test and for the essays but they will slaughter you in the finals! I'll be lucky if i get a C-! I can ACTUALLY fail A MODULE! in ARTS!? ohmygod i'm so so screwed. beyond any other time. and i do not appreciate my mother telling me not to get defensive when she says i must cut down on certain foods. if someone implies that you're fat, do you not get defensive? maybe its just me and i'm being over-sensitive but I do get tired of the fat jokes, digs, jibes and subtle for-your-own-good pieces of advice. LEAVE MY WEIGHT ALONE. its got ABSOLUTELY nothing to do with you. it really has nothing to do with you. unless i develop diabetes, high bp, heart disease, or some other diesase related to obesity (TOUCH/KNOCK WOOD), you have no right to BUG me about it. only AFTER that sort of thing happens, then are you allowed to. HELL, you can even say "i told you so" a million and one times. JUST NOT BEFORE. a downright pissed off and thoroughly upset shini

I just don't understand why they don't play this at the clubs. I mean whenever I IMMEDIATELY start dancing. And why wouldn't I? Its SUCH a dance song! maybe because its old, they don't play it, but STILL. sigh.

I know I've only been putting up videos and talking frivolous nonsense lately but I've been feeling down and stressed lately so talking about such nonsense makes me feel better, as does watching these favourite videos.

Enjoy lovies!

shini

I could listen all day

Okay, I heard this song again recently and it reminded me that once upon a time, about 5 years ago or so, when I discovered it, it was my favourite. Don't judge me okay, I have NO idea why, but I listened to this on repeat, quite a number of times. Sort of knew the words, but of course had no idea about the meaning. I thought I'd share it with you(whoever reads this) and if the video offends you, I'm sorry.

WARNING:EXCESS EXPOSURE OF SKIN AND LEWD MOVEMENTS UP AHEAD

Saaki Saaki, from Musafir, the movie.

Current favourites are

Ainvayi Ainvayi, from Band Baaja Baarat.
LOVE LOVE THIS SONG




Udi from Guzaarish. Absolutely adore it
I just love the video especially and omg Aishwarya's dresses that she wears through out the movie. And Hrithik's face, at the end of the video, just about pierces my heart.

last one




Dil toh Baccha hai ji from Ishqiya.
Haven't seen the movie, but I heard this song and just loved it.
Love the almost jewish music and of course Rahat ji's voice.

So there you have it, some songs that I just love. Yes they're the more popular and more obvious choices but that's just how it is;)
lots of love!

shini

I need to confess something. I'm pretty sure that no one would find this blog anyway so I should be fine.

I am TERRIFIED of World MUN. Absolutely TERRIFIED. And I'm a delegate for the Singapore team. I should be excited and I sort of am. But I'm just so so terrified. Plus the expenses are worrying me. Especially since I don't have any work attire so I have to buy pants and a blazer and hope my mum can dig out some blouses for me to wear. And wear those ridiculously painful heels. They really are ridiculous. But they're the only pair of "work"looking heels I have. A bit high la for "work" but I obviously don't have the cash to buy another more comfortable pair. I just don't want to look STUPID. not just in attire but during the sessions and while talking and convincing the other delegates. Especially since the Chairs of the different committees are so so impressive, just from the little biodata that they provided. And I'm pretty sure that the majority of the delegates would have done this all before. Also, my laptop's battery power is QUITE pathetic, so bringing it to the conference would be a little ridiculous, especially since each session is supposed to be 3 hours and I KNOW my laptop can't last 3 hours. Maybe I should buy another battery? I don't even know where to get that but I'm sure I can secure a powerpoint thingy in the conference? And omg lugging the stupid laptop around will kill me. Is it tacky to have the wire and all that?Can't be helped what. Omg I'm so so nervous and scared and worried and deep deep deep DEEEEEEPPPPP down, I'm pretty sure there's a little excitement there.

NOT to mention I still have to solve the problem of the a.r. rahman ticket that I can't use. NOT because its my fault. ooooohhh noooo, it technically isn't. But in my mother's eyes, it IS my problem, and it IS my fault and WHY can't I just leave the conference early on the LAST FREAKIN DAY and go for the concert that I wasn't even asked about or knew about with my mother and uninterested sister who will probably FALL ASLEEP. She and my aunt just DON'T GET IT. There are at least 6 social events happening at night or whatever and MUN is as much a conference as a social thing where you interact with people from different parts of the world and make friendships. Wouldn't you think I'd WANT to be there all the way till the end for last night? Of COURSE nothing is compulsory, except obviously the sessions, but I'd didn't sign up for this because I HAD to, but because I WANTED to. and i've NEVER done MUN before. EVER. I'd really want to experience this whole thing cuz hello, when will I ever get to?!

sigh. I'm getting more frustrated as I talk about this.
Forget it.

shini

I thought I was imagining things when people say things like " your mother isn't used to you having all your own plans and stuff", I KNEW that my mother has basically no problem with my independence and she's not depending on me for things to do and stuff.

But just now she said that she wants to go and walk by the beach for like exercise in the evening and she wants me to go with her and like run because of COURSE and AS USUAL she's on me to lose weight. I on the other hand had an idea(yes as expected i have not acted upon it yet but i've been sick so sue me) whereby I'd bring my readings to the gym and use both the stepping machine and the bike and read while I work my legs, seeing as my thighs are the biggest issue. Plus there are the machines to use for the arms and as long as I don't run on the damn treadmill which i HATE, I should be fine. I really cannot stand the treadmill because it just makes my inferiority complex worse with all those damn numbers. At least when I run at the canal, I can just conveniently forget how long I took to jog 2km.

Sigh whatever la I'll go and do my OWN thing at the gym and go with mama as well. One can never have too much exercise.Specially since I'm hopeless at dieting.

shini

ZEE CINE AWARDS 2010 @Marina Bay Sands Grand Ballroom!

I know I should be really really glad and happy now but my flu and recently developed cough has sort of tired me out.
I really don't want to do a post right now but i KNOW its best to do one right after the event so everything's still fresh in your mind. Also I have a feeling that if i dont' let everything out, I'd go to sleep unhappy.

okay, so here goes.

I went with my mum and sister for the ZEE CINE AWARDS held in Marina Bay Sands Grand Ballroom and I was super duper excited! We got there pretty early and mum valet-parked the car at the hotel cuz we honestly didn't see any car park for the convention hall and stuff and we honestly thought it was held at the hotel. So we quickly found out that its actually opposite the road and we can take the underpass. Hence, we sat down at this bar, very chic and had a drink. I had a virgin margharita cuz I had taken panadol before I left(damn thing doesn't work). At like 7 we went to the venue very diligently. They opened the dorrs at like7.27 and we were seated by like 7.45. Mind you the ticket said 7.30.

The security person on stage after some time kept telling people to be seated otherwise they can't start. People were still streaming in at 8.30. People kept standing up at the area infront of the curtain, supposedly the "red carpet" area la and they couldn't start till everyone was more or less seated. So eventually I think we only started the show at like 9 or so.

The beginning was sort of shaky. There were issues with the camera because for some reason the camera would be stuck on either vidya balan or shatrughan sinha and his wife, or else pointed to the floor. While Akshay and Sajid talked for at LEAST 15 to 20 minutes, we couldn't see their faces on the screen. Then at some point, the screen went blank. By that time people were making a lot of noise and BOOING. I'm sorry to say but my MOTHER did it too! and my sister said it once but my mother kept AT IT a few times! I mean hey technical difficulties SHOULD be expected, let them know but don't BOO FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!!

The thing is that the emcees Akshay and Sajid didn't KNOW that we couldn't see them so they tried continuing on and apparently looked absolutely terrified when the audience started booing them obviously because they thought that they were booing at them not at the lack of a visual. Then someone came on the mike saying "We are experiencing technical difficulties bla bla bla" after maybe 5 to 10 minutes more of no cameras, there was an announcement saying that the official recording of the show would start now and then everything went on pretty smoothly.

At SOME point, my mother got pissed off again because she couldn't see the stage even with the binoculars because we had three fairly tall men sitting in front of us and there were tiers on for ever three rows. So she asked me to move down a seat. The thing is the woman that was sitting next to me had gotten up and left during the commotion but I didn't know if she was coming back or not cuz she had HAD a drink and packet of chips in her hand so she might have gone outside to get something. So I told her there's someone sitting here, cannot move. So she was pissed at me. Well she had that LOOK on her face. Couple of moments later I asked the man sitting on the other side of the empty seat if he knew if the woman was coming back but he said he didn't know. Unable to tahan her sulky face any longer, my sis was just " Let's just move down" so we did and she moved down too a few seconds later. EVEN THEN she still had that face on, so I told her she could have MY seat if she wanted cuz thankfully no one was sitting infront of me, in the next row, though of course there were people sitting in front of me in the subsequent rows.

During this ENTIRE time, I was somewhat dully watching the screen that again was thankfully, like right above our heads so THAT was good. They gave out all the technical awards and stuff and unfortunately I can't remember who won most of them except for the ones I sent out in sms-es. Eventually my mood lifted when I saw that mama had gotten OVER the whatever and was finally smiling and stuff. However, quite frankly, because this IS my blog, I WILL say what I want here; she did ruin the experience for a while. Like the first 45 minutes. Which isn't fair. So yeah.

Okay, Now I don't know if you want any surprises when you watch the show in 2 weeks time or if you want me to give the LOW down on everything but I'll just put a disclaimer here.

DISCLAIMER: THE NEXT PART GIVES A BLOW-BY-BLOW(as far as I can) OF THE ZEE CINE AWARDS SHOW. IF YOU DON'T WANT SPOILERS, SKIP AHEAD OR DON'T READ. thank you.

Okay, there were about 5 performances, by Arjun Rampal and some other actresses, Priyanka Chopra, Deepika Padukone, AISHWARYA RAI-BACHCHAN, AND SHAH RUKH KHAN. There were also like these little gags and things la obviously, one involving Chunkey Pandey(very accommodating), Hrithik and Sussane Roshan. Well the last one wasn't specifically a gag per say just very entertaining. Neha Dupia and Sophie Choudary helped out with the hosting too at some point. I gotta say though that these stars show a LOT of love for each other, on stage at least. I was very happy with the performances of Arjun, Deepika, Aishwarya and Srk. Quite honestly I was NOT expecting the latter 2 to be performing and I think the crowd wasn't either so they really CHEERED LOUDLY!!! Although, I think it was very very smart of the organisers to get those people to perform because they all got awards. Arjun got for I think best supporting actor, Deepika got for international icon(female), (Ranbir Kapoor got international icon male;ironic don't cha think?), Aishwarya got best actress(jury choice) and Shah rukh got best actor(popular). PC(priyanka chopra) didn't get anything, as far as I can remember but she put on like 6 little skits things, representing each of the nominated films, so I think she had plenty screen time. She did them REALLY well too! Unfortunately, I had not watched like 4 out of 6 of the movies that were nominated so I couldn't really enjoy the skits though the one for My Name Is Khan was really quite funny!

Akshay Kumar and Sajid Khan had apparently installed this trampoline next to the podium at one end of the stage so when the stars had to come up and collect their awards, they made them literally JUMP FOR JOY which I thought was quite hilarious and they were all quite willing to do it! Vidya Balan was wearing a SARI and quite high heels and she jumped like three times! It was so cute la and so unexpected somehow. Even Aishwarya did a little hop, though I think she could have jumped more since later on Vidya's heels were definitely higher than hers.
The thing that SRK did with hrithik and sussane was sooooo hilarious and cute! After his performance(!!!!) he started talking about being a good hubby and all that and asked hrithik to come on stage. Then he went on to talk about how everything hrithik's done, he's taught him. THEN he asks sussane to come on stage for a few minutes because he wants to show hrithik how to treat your wife. She sits on a throne and there's like Sajda playing, and hrithik has to follow all of srk's actions and he TOTALLY does! there's like confetti thrown on her, and practically worshipping her . It was so romantic and lovely and so funny at the same time.

I had a wonderful time, despite the issues at the beginning. And in case you were wondering, I told my mum just now that I was quite unhappy with how she behaved. Of course she gave it back to me, because I was inflexible in moving down a seat. I DID it eventually, but i suppose at that moment when she asked, I should have done it. WHATEVER.

OH! for those family members of mine who read the blog, don't mention it to my mother please. And please listen to HER version of the night and don't mention about me being unhappy or anything. PLEASE.

thanks so much!

All in all, i was EXTREMELY glad that mama bought the tickets to go and even tough I didn't see any stars up close, or get an autograph, with the binoculars that we had borrowed from Auntie J, I could TOTALLY see them on stage and THAT was exciting!
So I LOVED LOVED LOVED it and I can't WAIT for them to come back!!!

LOTS OF LOVE,
SHINI

Hello hello children!
I know I've been MIA from this blog but let me just say that its not because i have nothing to write about but for some reason, I had this inertia to start writing. Strange I know but I finally felt that I should at least write about the new year and all that.

Personally I'm quite terrified about the new year starting. I have some things that I have to do in 2011 and that makes me apprehensive. There are quite a few things so let me elaborate.
1. I'm taking part in World MUN (Model UN) which is being hosted by NUS for the first time ever and I'm going to be one of the Singapore delegates. So I'll basically be interacting with various delegates, in meetings. Its a conference. I'm obviously terrified cuz if I have trouble talking in PS tutorial, how the HELL would I manage a whole bloody conference?! And yet, I know that if I prepare myself, I can do it. And its not like we're REALLY solving world problems, so yeah. Still scared though.

2. I have to get an internship during the summer break. Again, I'm quite worried about it cuz I don't have any working experience and I don't know if I can handle the jobs or not. But I have to do it and I know I can do it. So yeah, just apprehensive about that too.

3. My second year is ending. and I'm turning 21. It feels like I just only turned 20 and now I'm forced to become an adult. Like officially an adult. People say its no big deal turning 21, but it IS! I can't explain it la why I feel that way. And I don't think I'd be having a huge party by the way. I'm just not the sort. God knows my sister, mother, cousin, aunt and friends would feel that I should celebrate it though cuz all my cousins as far as I'm concerned have "celebrated" it. So, I'll have to be prepared to put up a good fight.

4. I'm going to start a diet of low carbs and regular exercise. To see if I really can lose weight or not. Of course, it will kill me, and I would be "plugged" into the laptop a lot more, cheering myself up with movies, shows, videos and music since food would no longer do it for me. I don't know how long I'd be able to do it cuz I'm not very disciplined when it comes to food. or anything really. so, we'll see how long I last, and how well I stick to it. Weirdly enough, even though its the first, I haven't actually started the diet. Thanks to my mother who bought oily but great indian food from Samy's yesterday, which we will be eating today. So, I'm just going to be like in a horrible mood for a while la.

so I'm just going to end off now, and happy new year lovlies!

shini