Killer bus

Have you ever had the feeling that you're going to die, when you're travelling on public transport? I'm not talking about public transport in other countries where maybe the transport system is not so developed. I'm talking about spore's transport system. Today I rode on the bus home and I swear I saw my life flash before my eyes (not to be cliche or anything). The bloody thing was going so so fast, especially down slopes I was just waiting for the sickening crash against a tree or something. My hands were just ready to be flung on face to protect it! *shudders* I mean the tires were actually SCREECHING, and this is a big vehicle you know.

Thankfully I got off in one whole piece, as the damn thing screeched off. Before this, I had only been in a taxi that went that fast, or faster. At least with the bus, its gotta stop at bus stops. With a taxi on the other hand, it only has to stop at red lights, and it might not even do so either if it manages to beat them! I was practically crying in the back seat and the driver raced to my destination. Racing with WHO I don't know. You have no idea how hard I prayed while I was in that taxi for those few minutes. Sigh. I hope I never am in such situations. I mean I hate being late, but I don't want to worry for and pray for my life while I'm travelling WITHIN my own country on my way somewhere that's probably insignificant. urgh. Okay, enough procrastinating(I say this now as I am thinking about watching a re-run of friends), I NEED to come up with a stupid NEW thesis statement for my ps essay. yes THAT, essay, that I had been complaining about a month ago. Only this time its not the draft but the real thing, worth 20%. Sigh. Help. ciao.

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shini

interesting no?

Hey these are just some videos I found, of course the dance one is recommended by someone else la. Enjoy peeps!

Notice, the dancers are russian. Cuz I myself was wondering how indians could be SO fair. I mean not that they're dark la,of course, but that you know her and their features, looked a little different. and yet, she's lip-synching like Karishma Kapoor! So cute and AMAZING performance I swear. They're so precise and PERFECT. And I LOVE the principal dancer's skirt! Anyway, yeah, hope you like the videos!

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shini

Sanya and Sarah

I've talked about these 2 before, but never put up a picture of them. My darling "nieces" Sarah(left) and Sanya(right). The one in pink, Sanya, is older, I think by like a minute. Adorable lovelies, they're 2 years, old. They chatter when you get them started and really make you run, but oh my gosh, they're so entertaining and gorgeous. Hopefully when they're cousin comes down with her mummy, I can debut her picture here as well.

I LOVE THAT THIS HAPPENED IN SPORE, but i was sad that i wasn't there

Just What I Needed!

If I haven't said here, how much I LOVE Russell Peters, well then, I LOVE Russell Peters!! Like seriously. I'm sitting here, TRYING to do my essay which is due in like 14 hours, (tues, 4pm) and am looking at 1500-200 words, of which about 400 have been written and not very well I might add, and i come across this clip of his, some old work which I haven't seen, and it cheers me up to no end! I swear, if he comes to Spore again, I will MAKE SURE that I go and watch him. I don't care what my MOTHER says. Sigh. So here are 2 old clips, that whose material you may not have seen. Lots of love!

Clarification

I'd like it to be known that any reviews, or recommendations of restaurants or shops or movies or plays, at all, are coming from my own enthusiasm and experience for the product/f&b outlet/form of entertainment. I have not and probably WILL NEVER receive any gifts or money from the above-written-type-of places. So I just want to be clear on that. As I just read in the newspaper that a fine will be imposed on bloggers who write reviews and received gifts or money for them. So I just want to make sure I'm not going to be accused of something I did not do.

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shini

parenthood?

This is going to be a quick one(hopefully) because I gotta go and finish ALL my studying for my soico mid-term on wed. Because I have to do cleaning tomorrow and some errands and yeah. Okay, I just had this thought that happened to be floating around.

I think being a parent, or more specifically in my case, a mother is A LOT of responsibility. I mean carrying the child for 9 months is hard, but after you squeeze him/her(hopefully a her) out, then you gotta RAISE her! I mean, I don't think I'd like all the cleaning up all the constant pooping and the worrying about every single bodily fluid, but I'll get used to it I'm sure. Its the learning part,and the development part that I'm worried about. Like, as an infant, when would you have to stop going to its every cry, and let it learn and what things to teach it without making it obvious that you're teaching her. I know I'm only a kid and I've got a looooooonnnggg way to go before even THINKING bout kids, but actually, if I hope to have at least ONE kid before I'm 30 (doing a breast cancer assignment made me worried), then its not that far away. I suppose this kind of thinking makes me appreciate my OWN mother, and like how on earth she managed to raise one kid in the uni, and the other (hopefully) ON the way to uni. Sigh. Now I feel all mushy, I'm gonna go and study. AND finish my work. even if it kills me. OH DAMN, tmr, got early lecture. MUST WAKE UP. okay, bye!

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shini

the Fun theory

Thanks S!!

P.S. I'm drinking eldeflower liquer as I type this and it is lovely!

First of all, YAY 150 POSTS!!!! I gotta be happy about that cuz I don't know how to see number of views.

Second of all, I wanted to recommend this book. I really love it and I suddenly thought of it as I was reading Franz Fanon's work, about decolonialisation. Its technically a fictional book, but I think the writer is actually talking about her life. Its called Don't Lets Go to the Dogs Tonight by Alexandra Fuller. I've read it and re-read it a number of times, cuz I really really like it. If any of you have the time, do read it. kays?

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Lesson Learnt

I learned a lesson today. I learned that I really really have to sleep early if I need to wake up early and that stressing myself up to ensure that I DO wake up. I thought that since I had been sleeping at like 3 and I could wake up at 8, before, means I could do it again. Obviously I didn't realise that this sort of lack of sleep, builds up and will hit you when you when you can afford it the least. Today I had a midterm at 10am, and I WOKE UP at 10.30am. I started FREAKING OUT immediately and swearing of course. Unfortunately I couldn't MISS the midterm because its like 30% so I HAD to somehow go and do the damn test. Also unfortunately, I had no money, so I couldn't call for a cab, so I had to run and catch the bus! I got to the Lt at like 11 and practically BEGGED the lecturer to let me take the test. I didn't mind that I wouldn't have extra time or that I couldn't do the listening portion, I just wanted to try and DO the rest of the test. Thank god I have a tutor who's an ANGEL I swear! So I did the test the BEST I could, even though I had been studying till late last night, I hadn't managed to finish the last set of lecture notes on morphology so I guessed as much as I could. Sigh. at least I tried. and I even managed to finish all the questions too. so yeah.

Urgh. I've got to now go and charge my laptop and either print out the readings for ps tutorial tmr, or read and write notes. and EACH IS like DAMN long you know! Sigh, better get started.

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shini

I know people might say that, "omg, get over it, he's gone,so you should move on", but I JUST found this, and really liked it so I'mma gonna put it up here.


oh and one more thing. I remembered how when we were younger, and there was this channel that showed the British programme Goodness Gracious Me! and my mum, dad, sis and i would all squeeze into my parents' bed and watch together. It was hilarious and I absolutely LOVED it. At that time, me and Di didn't know anyone who watched it too, so we didn't really talk about it with other people. Kind of like inside joke. Now, of course, I think more people I know have heard of the show, even though its not being shown regularly on a channel. I'd like it to be know that I HAVE HEARD OF THE SHOW AND WATCHED IT A SUPER DUPER LONG TIME AGO. So its not a new thing to me. I was gonna put up a clip, but u can find one easily enough. just type in the name. However, I must say that its nice to be remeinded of the show. Makes me remember all the other shows that I loved, that well, ended and disappeared.

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shini

the future?

I've been feeling a little depressed lately. And its got to do with the fact that I had chosen to do Political Science as my major. I mean I haven't actually declared but everyone goes into uni, with some idea of your choice of major and mine was PS. However, now when I'm actually DOING the module, as in the intro module, I feel like I'm not good enough to do well in it. I feel I'm not good enough to do ANY module for that matter. I'm not confident of ANY subject and I just don't feel good enough. And that's frustrating you know?

I don't like feeling this way and yet I can't DO anything about it. I'm trying to write my PS essay draft and whatever I HAVE written, somehow looks so juvenile and "small girl". I feel like the information's wrong, the tone seems tentative and I don't really know how to correct it. And while I'm writing, I have to remember to put in the right citations at the right junctures. AND think of examples too! I mean this will be my term essay, so I gotta do well in it, but I just don't see that happening. I hate that my self-esteem seems non-existent, or at least the level seems so low it can't even BE SEEN but I don't know how to pull it up. And nobody likes a sad low, constantly demeaning herself person. Its extremely unattractive. So I try to put up a fake persona, that's confident and apparently, it works, but its harder and harder to put up every time. I hardly EVER have good, real, confident days and its not like self-esteem is only attributed to this feeling of not being smart enough either. Lots of things affect self-esteem; don't get me STARTED on my appearance! I really gotta stop whining on this blog, cuz then people ( the few who regularly check it out) will stop and that doesn't do ANY good for said self-esteem. I think I'm gonna shut up now and TRY and finish fleshing out my draft as well as putting in the citations. Tomorrow I'll edit and put the citations in-text. Gonna go now and well, bye

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