Mule

Mama told me something interesting. Apparently she breastfed me for only 3 months, like with the breast. Then I think she needed to switch over, to go back to work, so when she did, she expressed the milk into a bottle right? So she wanted to feed me with the bottle. GUESS WHAT?

I absolutely refused to drink from it! Apparently I was so angry that she switched, I think I liked the mother-daughter time when she breastfed me or something, that I refused to drink any milk the WHOLE DAY! Mind you, I was like 4 months old or something. I think I just kept crying and refusing the milk. My mother said she'll never forget that day, cuz she was so stressed cuz for small baby, milk is fed every 4 hours and like whole day I didn't drink anything. Stubborn as a mule she said. HOWEVER, I just said that at that age, without any environmental factors, the stubborness is just the genes so she has herself and papa to blame. Which is true what!She knows herself that she is stubborn so yea. i truly never knew about that story.

anyway, I felt like putting that up. I'm feeling kinda tired, but shall persevere and go read.
ta!

love love
shini

Hello my lovelies!!

As you can tell, I'm in an okay-ish sort of mood right now. Well at least I'm not depressed. I'm just tired and well, kinda happy I suppose. anyway, people are all buzzing about Adam Lambert's supposed jaw-dropping performance at the American Music Awards, which I nicely missed cuz I just didn't know about it. Anyway, to see what the big problem was, I decided to youtube the performance (which reminds me, I gotta see the whole thierry henry thing as well) and quite frankly I don't see what the problem was.

HE WAS PUTTING ON A SHOW PEOPLE!!!!

Gosh, you'd think Americans have never seen a kiss between 2 guys before. And hello? Anyone remember the smooch between the 2 mega starts Madonna and Britney? They didn't give THOSE two as much flak as they are giving Adam. Why cuz they're women? Such bull! *rolls eyes*
And personally, I think the Brit-Madge kiss was a little strange, cuz I mean not to be ageist or anything but, Madonna looked to old to be kissing Britney like that ON STAGE. But whatever, that was over and done with. At least Adam's kiss went with the theme of the whole thing. You know, there was flow. Although I do have a complaint about the performance. I did like the song, the beat was good, but i think he screamed it too much near the end. Overall, though I'm still a fan and maybe I will go and buy his album after all!

Oh! I was looking at Penny's Daybook today and they had done this interview with this designer? So I checked out her website and TOTALLY FELL IN LOVE WITH HER DESIGNS. I'm serious. I saw at least 10 things or MORE that I wanted to buy immediately. Thankfully she's based in spore (sporean after all) and there's the possibility of me buying her stuff. UNFORTUNATELY, I am 100% broke. Like completely absolutely. At such an inconvienent time too. See I really wanna watch Kurbaan (movie), The Beauty and the Beast (theatre) and I desperately need to buy some black flats as my old pair are BEYOND repair. And now, on top of everything, I have discovered a website that sells my favourite type of accessories, in new designs that I just adore. I love shopping for accessories, but I hate buying clothes. Which is why my wardrobe is kinda boring. Plus, with my figure,(not size cuz the word has a slightly negative connotation, to me anyway), a number of styles are completely OUT for me.

So do check the website out, its http://www.jeaninegabrielle.com/ and trust me, you'll love it too.

Another thing. In dec, I've decided to try out the Special K thing where u eat Special K for 2 meals and you'll supposedly go down a jean size in like a week. I don't believe the "dropping a jean size in a week" part, cuz thats just not possible, especially for me, but I do think that if you eat flakes twice a day, deny yourself carbs and all the junk food you love, SOME weight has to go off. Problem is thaaaaat, I'll be going out a lot in dec. So how to maintain? Plus, I'm not sure i should gym as ferociously as I had initially planned (before the Special K plan), cuz I might pass out on the gym floor from lack of energy. Well, we'll see. The problem with wanting and TRYING to lose weight, is that I think I'll be seriously unhappy most of the time, cuz dieting is like my mortal enemy. The treadmill looks like 10 times friendlier.

You know how sometimes, you find it hard to tell certain people your weight, if it comes up? Personally, I never ask, cuz I wouldn't like to be asked by anyone except the members of the tightest circle. So when someone else asks, depending on the person, I'll either say, no, or I'll just give the answer and change the topic. Its harder when the other person is so......pro-fitness and frank about YOUR appearance (i.e. shini you're fat and need to lose weight.-well not in the same way la, but you get the idea) On the other hand, since I don't really know ALL the people who read my blog, and those I do know, I'm comfortable enough with to confess my weight, I'm totally fine with typing my latest knowledge about my weight online. so here goes.....51kg.

Wow. that was actually hard to type. Bear in mind also that I'm only 1.48m so, technically i'm kinda overweight. That's why I look the way I do I suppose. I plan to lost AT least 5KG, if not 6 and go down to 45kg, which is the heaviest I should be EVER. The thing is, I don't think the 5kg, will make much of a difference, visually I mean. Of course if I lose like 10kg, then yeah la, you'll see some weight loss. But. I think its hard for me to lose weight, cuz dieting makes me sad and there's only so much exercise can do without dieting.

Okay, this is just depressing me and I've already wasted enough time today. I'm going to listen to the webcast. Damn, I can just HEAR the chips calling me. Urgh. thank god for exams. gives me an excuse, note an excuse not reason, to delay my get-fit attempt.

feeling depressed and hungry,
shini

P.S. I'll try not to listen.

Cake vs Cookie, Brownies, Biscuits

The thing about baking cakes, is that you can't taste-test them. Not really anyway. If you're making it for tea, to serve it to other people, then after you bake it, you can't really taste-test it, in case something went wrong and it doesn't taste good. You just gotta serve it and hope for the best. Which is why I think, in the world of baking, baking a cake is the ULTIMATE challenge for me. So far I can bake ONE type of cookie and ONE type of biscuit, as di says, one sweet and one savoury should be enough for me. And technically, it is. However, its not very impressive when you tell other people you see. So at some point, I gotta be able to bake other things on my own, like brownies and eventually CAKES.

I do know though, that if I were going to bring something for tea, I'd NEVER bring cake. Cuz well, with my baking skills, you can never be sure that the cake turned out well, and its not nice to impose bad or at least not good cakes on other people, even if they're family.

NOTE: this is not a commentary on any actual event happening. Just an observation.

shini

In case you're wondering, I'm still in A VERY BAD MOOD. cried and everything. However, I wanna just mention something.

I'll say one thing about my parents. Though they can really really piss me off, like ALL the time and of course vice versa, I can imagine that they must have really taken good care of me and sister when we were younger. I mean of course they still do, but a symptom of the past is still carried forth till today.

No matter what time it is, if either one of us enter their room while they're both sleeping, you can bet that at least one if not both of them will wake up to ask what's wrong, or what do you need. Even just now when I wanted to charge my phone with my mum's charger which was plugged in very tightly in her room. Before I could even REACH the charger, she already asked, what are you looking for. And not even in an irritated way. And I think this is a symptom of when we were younger and woke up in the middle of the night. It helps that they're both teachers and HAVE to wake up super early.

I do remember though, one night that my sister woke up from the storm going on outside, or she had a really bad nightmare, and she wasn't like 7 or 8 mind you. That time we hadn't joined our beds together and there was the HUGE gap of like 4 parquet squares between our beds. She was so affected that she actually wanted to climb into bed with me. I was half asleep myself, so I whatever. But even though the other family member may not be awake enough to comfort you properly, just being close helps i think. Then again, you'd have to ask my sister.

Even though I'm regularly irritated with my family, and STILL are as of this moment, I do love them and treasure them very much and would die if anything happened to them.
On that note, i'm going to go off to cry in peace.

shini

Sociology is making me depressed. Really depressed. Especially when no solutions are offered. Somthing else is making me feel sad too, except I can't or more appropriately WON'T discuss(complain) about it here. And I'm too lazy to write about it in my diary. Writing makes me tired. It doesn't help that the song playing now is very sad (Tu Jaane Na). And I didn't have a proper meal today, yet my tummy isn't or hasn't complained. Amazing huh?

If my sister takes any more money from me, I will be so so completely broke and supremely unhappy I'll probably kill her. Seriously. At the rate she's going, she has to give me her pocket money for the next 3 months at least. And she gets like $30 a week or at least she's supposed to. Dad doesn't give regular monies when we don't go to sch regularly, like during the hols. Plus he's pissed at her now so he said she's not getting any monies. So guess who's she going to be sponging off now? And urgh, an awful thought just occurred to me: she'll get thinner from having no monies to eat a lot and hence look even BETTER than she already does next to me.

In case you haven't realised yet, this is going to be a wallow-in-self-pity post. so get out if the low self-esteem is making you gag. I know I would if I weren't in such a FOUL mood right now.
My lack of knowledge and my inability to withhold any information I read, is pissing me off further, along with my wonderfully screwed up biological clock. I don't know what I'll do if I'm late for my exams. Probably cry my eyes out I suppose. Well its NOT going to happen. I JUST GOTTA SWITCH THE CLOCK BACK somehow. I could attempt to wake up without 8 hours of sleep tmr I suppose and see if my theory works or not.

Urgh. Okay my OWN self-pity and low self-esteem is annoying even me so i'm ending this post and to whoever is reading this blog, forgive me for this drivel.

shini

Feminist?

I happened to be talking to this guy some time ago, and I happened to be telling him about how I'd run my life in the future.

For example, like I AM NOT doing my future husband's laundry(should i even get married). And how I'd learn cooking, not to cook FOR my husband, but cuz its a good skill to have and I'd learn dishes that I like to eat, not to be a perfect wife and daughter-in-law. I probably won't be the perfect daughter-in-law cuz i'm not going to be a housemat for the husband. None of the I do the housework and cooking AND go to work. If you're gonna live in the house, you gotta do your share too. I told all this to him and well, he was surprised.

Thinking about all this now, I still believe in what I said. However, I am wondering if I sound like a feminist or not. I mean there's nothing wrong with being feminist but I don't want to be labelled. Plus I've also heard that guys are scared of dominating females. And I'm actually a shy girl you know so I don't want to send of the wrong impression. But I can't pretend I'm one person, when I'm another.

Sigh. I think marriage is something that's waaayyyy in the future. And its ridiculous to think about it now. But still! Ah, never mind. Anyway i'll be back probably to off load some other thoughts that were stimulated by socio. Which is what i'm supposed to be studying. I'm on Family, in case you're wondering.

love!
shini

i feel sick. maybe its my body acknowledging my procrastination regarding my exams in like A WEEK. omg. i think vomit just came up. or that other thing, whatever its called. *shudders*

slept WAAAAAYYYYY too much today, so i'm wide awake at nearly 3 in the morning. urgh. and i've only done till phonology for english. sigh. i am BEYOND screwed you know that?BEYOND. i can say bye bye to my As and Bs.

sob sob. i'm going off now.

bleaugh.

shini

I'd like to add something else on to the post below. If you watch the first video, and listen to the judges' commentary, you'll notice that the last judge, Mia Michaels who's this phenomenal contemporary choreographer by the way, says that she loves it when you see the bollywood dances being performed with like hundreds of people behind all in sync. I find her comment very very refreshing. People are always making fun of that element in bollywood cinema, that out of nowhere 50 dancers pop up and all start dancing the exact steps and singing with their constumes in place. I've always loved that aspect. See what people don't realise is that all those scenes right, are supposedly called "dream sequences" that are happening in the mind of either the hero, the heroine or both. I figured that usually, if the hero is singing and the his so-called love is silent during the song-dance and is just smiling lovingly, he is in love with her in real life but hasn't told her. And vice versa. If BOTH are singing, then they're either on honeymoon, or in some magical place.

Anyway, I just thought it was interesting that she, a western choreographer actually thinks that the whole group dancing in sync thing is amazing. made me happy:)

anyway, i'm basically screwed for my exams. I don't even seem stressed about it, probably cuz the lecturers and tutors seem to think its not that a big deal. BUT IT IS!!! urgh
dead dead dead dead dead very much DEAD.

a dead and sad shini says bye.

so you think you can dance 4

I love watching the show So You Think You Can Dance and I'm currently waaaayyyy behind, only o Season 4. However that doesn't matter cuz I'm just LOVING the season!!! The dancers are SO good and so freaking GOOD-LOOKING i swear. Anyway, I found these 2 videos that I just gotta point out. One is an actual competing piece, done by the couple who's performances have been just brilliant every time I see them: Katey and Joshua.Lovely couple and just so good. They did something that was a first on the show: A BOLLYWOOD DANCE. I personally hated the song, but, they did it masterfully well. Check it out.

Also, this was like apparently at the END of the whole season. The judge, who I'm assuming's like 50, actually performing and it was all I could do to concentrate on her dance cuz I was just staring at her LEGS! I'm pretty sure that the performance was her dream coming true cuz she was dancing with the most manly constestant that had been on the show, Dimitri so yeah but wow. She's just fantastic. Who knew those legs were under that table all this time! Enjoy!

love love
shini

Sad sad sad

Okay first of all, I'ms ure you've noticed that I haven't put up a picture of my lovely biscuits. I'm lazy. so yeah.

Anyway, have you ever wondered, assuming you've watched some Bollywood movies, how is it that the characters can fall in love SO FAST? And its not just the Hindi movies, but the Tamil ones too. I mean of course in a movie, months can pass, in a matter of minutes, but still. There ARE plots where 2 characters fall in love SO fast. I just realised how that's so amazing! I mean I personally have never felt that way about anyone (never had the chance), but, I would imagine that it would occur over some time. *shrugs* Makes you wish that the movie world were possible. The world of imagination where the awful reality is non-existant.

Also, have you had like any particular song that can make you sad, almost within a minute of hearing it? For me, since Hindi songs are my favourite, well most of them anyway, there are some Hindi songs that just hit me with sadness.

Jaoon Kahan-Billu Barber
Dhule Ka Sehra-Dhadkan
and most recently,
Tu Jaane Na-Ajab Prem Ki Gazab Kahani.

The last one, is the most potent. I swear. I mean love problems are like the most cliched and talked about in the world of Bollywood, but for some reason, this song just hits me so so hard the second I hear the singing. Its about the girl not knowing the guy's love. I'm not explaining it properly but EVERYTIME I hear it, I just feel sad.

Since misery loves company, I'll put it here for you guys.

Love love
shini

p.s. excuse the visuals, just listen

too much don't ya think?

A lot of people think talking about Hollywood and Bollywood is extremely shallow. Like people wouldn't be caught dead discussing the lives of the actors and actresses in these industries. I on the other hand, don't think so. Of course I do understand why people think its shallow. I mean technically, these people that we discuss, don't even know WE exist and also, their life is THEIR life. WE have no right discussing it because its got NOTHING to do with us. And its shallow because well, they're JUST actors. The don't actually DO anything that important you know?Not like doctors or engineers or even lawyers. And yet, they're paid SO much, just to "play pretend".

The above piece in red, is basically what intellectuals or wannabes anyway would say when people like me say "what's wrong about discussing the lives of these actors in Hollywood and Bollywood?". You THINK that you're making me feel stupid when I don't join you with your spirited discussions about the economic situation of the world, the APEC summit, the various situations around the world regarding yet another country not getting along with some other country and etc. What you don't realise is that actually, just because I don't join in with your dicussions, doesn't mean I'm not aware. I agree that yes, I'm probably not as intellectual as you are; that my interests aren't as high-brow as yours are. That doesn't make me DUMB. I DO have interest in world affairs. The fact that I'm in the arts faculty should already give you a hint. You can't be in the arts fac and not be interested in world affairs. I mean I had even planned on majoring in Political science. I just either haven't come up to date on the various PROBLEMS of the world or I jsut choose to focus on the more frivolous things in life because life is stressful enough as it is for me to try and solve the world's issues by arguing with YOU about them.

So when I mention something about the Bollywood industry, some GOSSIP, don't dismiss me in your head as me being fluffy and frivolous. Everything has its function in the world, INCLUDING things like ridiculous Bollywood flims, and chick flicks/lit. Worse still, you dismiss me in you head as being silly, but in conversation, you still smile and try and engage me in another world affair. I might be showing my age when I start blabbering about some actor doing something, but at least I HAVE an interest in SOMETHING that other people can relate to. Cuz sometimes you gotta have neutral conversation topics lying your brain, like the ChrisBrown/Rihanna story cuz not everyone is going to be like me(someone who tries to follow your conversation and provide appropriate comments), and soon people will stop trying to talk to you cuz it just requires too many brain cells.

You KNOW what I mean.

Anyway, now that I've gotten THAT off my chest, I'd just like to mention something that I noticed. For some reason, I've been seeing a lot of Bollywood movie stars on the small screen. DOING ADVERTISEMENTS. Yes. Its some trend I think that's going round. Which I personally do not approve of. Why you ask? Well, it takes away jobs for actors out there who DO need the money, unlike the Bollywood stars. Let me name the ones I've noted.
Anusha Sharma(the most recent I've noticed)
Katrina Kaif
Rani Mukherjee
Kajol
Deepika Padukone
Shah Rukh Khan
Aamir Khan
Vidya Balan
Hrithik Roshan
and that Aladin girl(I don't know her name cuz I haven't watched the movie yet and she's NEW)

Now don't you think that's odd? I mean they appear ALL the time. And the advertisements arne't even anything special, except for the appearence of the stars(with the exception of Hrithink Roshan's one of course) Cuz normally, the adverts in the Hindi channels are exceptionally entertaining as I've mentioned, but now they've dropped their quality, just because they've got some star?
*shakes head* Terrible. No excuse. It should actually be even more entertaining, cuz they're supposedly better actors, hence able to do more complex acting. Unless you're telling me there's a derth of actors in India? Which is just such a ridiculous concept. SO yeah. anyway, that's all I really wanted to say. So ciao!

love love
shini

A first

HEY HEY HEY!!! Guess what I did TODAY???

A clue: it is FIRST for me. Not a very good clue I suppose cuz I haven't had a lot of firsts.

Fine, I tell you.

I BAKED ALL BY MYSELF!!!!

I have baked before, like chocolate chip cookies for valentine's day in j2 i think? some people might remember. thought probably not. anyway, it doesn't count, cuz Di was still in the kitchen, baking with me and she also helped me. THIS time, I was alone in the kitchen and I DID IT. I mean, okay, luckily my mother came home in time to tell me when to take out the biscuits, but hello? baby steps kay, baby steps. I will post a picture of my wonderful achievement tmr.

Most people are probably wondering, what's the big deal about me baking? That obviously means that YOU don't talk or listen to me enough.

I am not good with hot items. I'd rather not go NEAR a stove or an OVEN, though an oven is less intimidating than the damn stove. If I wanted, I could try and psycho-analyse this fear.

I would say that BOTH my parents, are fabulous cooks. My mother was brilliant first, then she taught my dad. He found that HE had a knack for it and made it his hobby. It helped that people constantly praised him for his wonderful cooking and its sort of a novelty that the dad cooks in the house, and the mum doesn't right? Especially in an Indian household. So naturally, us kids are sucked into the kitchen quite often. Made to chop veggies, stir curries or whatever, flip stuff. That sort of thing. Before the maid left, we didn't enter the kitchen very often. After she left, I was always there, washing up.
That was my main job see, washing the dishes. Di had to dry and put them away. The thing is, how did the fear or more like aversion to the stove and oven come about? Maybe its because I felt and still feel that my dad had very high standards for food. Both my parents have high standards for food. Also, maybe the heat of the stove and the noise, makes me extra stressed, cuz anything can go wrong and I JUST don't like the idea of wasting food because it tastes bad. I dread the day when I have to learn cooking from my dad. It would just make me hate cooking all the more. My mum's a better teacher in cooking, or baking which is her first love. Which is probably why I take to baking better than cooking. Its more of an exact science. Which makes me less stressed. Its like oven=mum, stove=dad. Ya know?

As it is, I don't like hot things, as I've said before, and both are very very hot. But of the two, If I had to choose, I'd take the oven. Not as unpredictable. I know I've GOT to learn some cooking eventually. Like basic Indian, and the dishes that I like. I mean have you ever heard of an indian girl who couldn't cook? Of course, i hope I wouldn't HAVE to cook and just make my dear future husband cook(should he exist), but one must assure the future mother-in-law that her dearest son doesn't STARVE, though the fact that he's perfectly welcome to cooking for himself would never cross her mind la. At least I can already clean the house, which is good cuz I'm NOT getting a maid. This post seems to be going in another direction, which is not my intention. This other direction shall be explored another day.

Anyway, going back to my original spiel, I WILL learn how to cook. But slowly. This is already an achievement in itself right?

love love!
shini

I got this e-mail, a description of various zodiacs, specifically for women, withe the What's Your Rashee theme. This was Scorpio. As in me. So, tell me if you think anything's true. Though personally, the whole "house being spic and span" and the "great food and coffee" is waaaaaaayyyy off mark.

Scorpio Woman(24th October to 22nd November)

The beauty of a Scorpio woman is exceptional, mysterious and totally magnetic. She knows that and is proud of herself. She will control her wish to dominate and will let a man lead in a relationship, atleast during courtship. She knows how to hypnotize a man and gets successful, more often than not. Don't expect a Scorpio female to rush into your arms in front of a thousand people and shout her feelings at the top of her voice. Instead, she will come close to you, glance at you in a sensual way and whisper the most romantic words in a seductive tone.

If you are not sincere with your feelings, don't even try to get close to a Scorpio girl. With those beautiful, penetrating eyes of hers, she can read exactly what is on your mind. She can easily make out your real intentions, so Don't Flirt. It will amount to insulting her and I assure you, insulting her is not at all good for your health. Even when her tone is soothing, her disposition kind and her smile generous, she can be planning the most powerful retaliation. When a Scorpio woman is insulted or gets hurt, her fury knows no bounds.

Then, she can become the most hard-hearted and most sarcastic person on this earth. If she loves with fierce devotion, she hates with devastating malice. If you are really in love with her, then you need to know more about her. She has a very hypnotic gaze and the moment her eyes meet your, you will go tumbling down in her deep passion. Being noticed by a Scorpio female definitely gives a boost to a man's ego. She needs a man who is stronger than she is and weakness in him won't get her sympathy at all.

He will be expected to behave like a real man, who can dominate her and make her proud. At the same time, he should respect her individuality. He should be better looking than average, with an intellect, philosophical and totally masculine. He must also be ambitious and able to handle tough situation with poise. After she gets committed, a Scorpio female will shower you with all her love and attention. Her whole life will start revolving around you and she will be extremely loyal and exceedingly passionate.

She is passionate with everything that is related to her. It is almost impossible for her to have neutral feelings. Either she will deeply cherish or fiercely hate. If any of the feelings are not experienced, she will become completely indifferent towards it. Scorpio women, however, never let these feelings show. Her expression will always remain neutral, betraying nothing. Her anger is very bad and it's better to get out of her way when it gets out of hand. Her characteristics profile will make her storehouse of secrets, but people wouldn't know any of hers.

Her personal life will be out of bounds for everyone. At the same time, she will never tell the secrets that have been confided in her, not even to you. Even with you, she will have a private part and its better not to pry. That does not mean she is dishonest. Infact, she will be so brutally honest that, at times, she may hurt people in the process. Like a typical Scorpio, she will choose her friends very carefully and the credible ones will remain with her throughout her life. She will never maintain a relationship with unworthy people.

Determination and will power are her basic personality traits. She can use them anytime to come out of anything that is negative. If you have been able to win the true love of a Scorpio female, you can be sure you will never feel lonely again. She will be totally devoted to you and even if you two don't get married for any reasons beyond your control, her love for you will not change. She is one of those who believe in the phrase 'Till Death Do Us Apart'. Rather than overshadowing her husband, she believes in supporting him.

'Behind every successful man, there is a woman'; this idiom is perfect in case of the husband who has a Scorpio wife. For her, the future, the happiness and the dreams of her husband hold the supreme importance. She will always defend him fiercely in public and won't take nicely to anyone taking advantage of him. She will always encourage him to reach for the stars, build his courage and never let him turn back from midway. Scorpio women love their homes and keep them spic and span.

Now comes the dangerous part. A Scorpio girl is extremely jealous and fiercely possessive of her loved ones. She is prone to suspicions; so don't give reasons to be doubtful of you. On the other hand, you will have to control your jealousy, since she will be attracting a lot of members of the opposite sex. She also dislikes being possessed by anyone, including you. In such a scenario, just remember that a Scorpio woman will always be loyal and devoted to you, even in the worst of circumstances.

And then, you know you cannot leave her and it is better to adjust to such a trifle thing. Nobody walks away from a Scorpio, right? As far as money is concerned, she will enjoy it whether she saves it in a piggy bank or splurges it on luxurious things. She is very conscious of her social standards and will never compromise in case of status. She likes power and will sacrifice money and many other things for it. She seems to be very practical, but inside she is very emotional. Like all Scorpios, she will not see any viewpoint in case of her own emotions.

A Scorpio female has a sense of fairness and justice. If you don't wish her good morning one day after a fight, she will do the same for the next four days. The same goes for generosity also. If you do one kind deed for her, she will do four in return. As a mother, she will extremely possessive of her children and will care for them. However, she may not express her love openly and this is something you will have to teach her. She will make them independent, fair, strong and proud of themselves, the way she is of them. She will encourage them to develop their innate talents and make sure they don't go unnoticed.

A Scorpio woman can drown you in her passion. But then, she can also bring you to safety when the raft becomes too dicey. She can provide you her calm and steady support in the worst of circumstances. Once you win her love, you will never be lonely again. Your food will be perfectly baked and she will grind fresh coffee for you. You will always come back to a spotless home, radiating with the aura of her magnetic personality, the charm of her deep beauty and the warmth of her everlasting love!

love love!

Tons to talk about!

Okay, so I just gotta write this post as fast as my slightly-too-long-but-then-again-quite-perfect-length nails will allow me to, otherwise all my thoughts, will DISAPPEAR.
So first, I just gotta say that I am TOTALLY in love with this advertisement.

Yeap, you heard me,(well read me), I'm in LOVE with an advertisement. its this advert, on zee movie theatre channel 150, see? So of COURSE the adverts are going to be fab-u-lous right? Anyway, this is the newest Reliance ad, with Hrithik Roshan and there's just something about it that I just love! I love the tunes, which my mother said is actually Bach's, I love the little dance and I love his look! I actually get a little happier whenever it happens to come on. Some might think that's pathetic with a capital P, but that's just the way I feel right NOW! I'm gonna post the ad up yea? then I'll talk about something else that's on my mind. Dammit, I can feel my thoughts slipping away into that abyss, where it will only appear again when something else stimulates my mind. Oh well,*shrugs*


Now onto another thing that's on my mind.
I had previously never EVER watched WWE, you know, wrestling? I had always thought it was barbaric and ridiculous and just a violent piece of nonsense(no offense to those fans out there). However, since I had begun to enjoy soccer more and even the NBA(which by the way I have completely lost touch of, cuz of school now), I had become more open minded about sports. Just a teeny tiny bit more open minded. So I thought I should actually give it a try right?

Well, what I realised, when I watched WWE, for like 20 to 30 minutes, is that A) The sport is complete bs, because the moves are SO fake and practiced and pathetic that it really is no use for me to watch it because I couldn't understand why such strong and buff men and women would want to do FAKE moves and B) I am actually quite a violent person myself. I would rather they actually and properly beat people up, with actual bruises and blood than see this "acting" with all their baseless bravado. That sounds quite bad huh? I mean I don't discount the fact that choreographing all those moves and yes, the word is choregraphing, is difficult, what more actually performing them. It must require a lot of muscle control to look like you're hitting hard without actually laying a scratch on the guy. Plus they gotta act all meana nd angry towards each other all the time, which can't be good for their blood pressure, even if it IS just acting.

However, that's just what it is, acting. or dancing even. NOT wrestling. Then how does one DETERMINE a winner? Do they decide beforehand, that oh, okay this week I'm gonna win, so next week will be your turn. And what, at the end of the season or whatever, they decide that okay, YOU can win this season, but next season will be this other guy's win. Cuz everything's fake and practiced anyway. I think though that I'm gonna to do more research into this area before I can make ANYMORE judgements, cuz technically, I'm still quite ignorant about all this.

I had wanted to talk about something else at this point, but now I just either can't remember or I'm too tired and have had enough of typing to blog further. So enjoy the advert and I hope you keep reading!

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