Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Grey's Anatomy
The new season has started. I had almost refused to watch the last season cuz it drove me nuts, cuz it was so filled with death and sadness and problems, even though I loved it so much. In the end of course I did watch it, cuz, how could I not right? Been watching EVER SINGLE EPISODE, since it started. But I hate what the show does to me. Almost every season, there'll be a whopper of an incident. Usually some tragedy. Which usually ends up with me sobbing my eyes out for over an hour. And I hate what it does to me cuz seriously, I look terrible and my sister looks at me like I'm a wuss, but I just can't help crying whenever I see someone else crying so much, which ALWAYS happens on the show. They're just too good actors!
I'm not afraid to admit it, that I do cry when I watch some shows, because some things just sad. I almost burst into tears, everytime I come even the teensiest bit close to imagining my loved ones passing away. Tears are coming into my eyes as I type this, because of course the thought has been put into my head, of constantly missing them and wanting to talk to them, but not being able to. Oh my god, this is pure torture and by right, I shouldn't be doing this. Everyone's fine and well and healthy and I have other more pressing matters to worry about, like essays and mid-terms but I just can't help it. I just don't know how people do it. How they move on with their lives, without being able to talk to that person who left you. Maybe that's what Sylvia Plath felt like when her father died. I wouldn't know, I don't know her very well, nor do I know her work. I didn't understand at first, but I think I'm beginning to, a little. But still, that one issue eludes me, how they move on, when they want to talk to that person so badly. I don't think I'll every figure it out, which isn't good because eventually, people pass away. They say only 2 things in life are certain, death and taxes. So I'll have to figure it out eventually, but I don't think I have to right now. right now, I gotta go and sleep and start writing that essay draft ASAP. I know I can do it. I just gotta start. I mean I already got some books and other resources. Just gotta start. And remove that block that's somehow been put there, god knows by who and just START.
Good Night.
shini
P.S. Oh by the way, in case you're wondering, yes, I did just watch the first 2 episodes of the new season 6 of Grey's Anatomy. Check out greatstufftv.com if you want to too. Damn, got EL lecture tmr, must be ready to not understand! sigh. bye!
I'm not afraid to admit it, that I do cry when I watch some shows, because some things just sad. I almost burst into tears, everytime I come even the teensiest bit close to imagining my loved ones passing away. Tears are coming into my eyes as I type this, because of course the thought has been put into my head, of constantly missing them and wanting to talk to them, but not being able to. Oh my god, this is pure torture and by right, I shouldn't be doing this. Everyone's fine and well and healthy and I have other more pressing matters to worry about, like essays and mid-terms but I just can't help it. I just don't know how people do it. How they move on with their lives, without being able to talk to that person who left you. Maybe that's what Sylvia Plath felt like when her father died. I wouldn't know, I don't know her very well, nor do I know her work. I didn't understand at first, but I think I'm beginning to, a little. But still, that one issue eludes me, how they move on, when they want to talk to that person so badly. I don't think I'll every figure it out, which isn't good because eventually, people pass away. They say only 2 things in life are certain, death and taxes. So I'll have to figure it out eventually, but I don't think I have to right now. right now, I gotta go and sleep and start writing that essay draft ASAP. I know I can do it. I just gotta start. I mean I already got some books and other resources. Just gotta start. And remove that block that's somehow been put there, god knows by who and just START.
Good Night.
shini
P.S. Oh by the way, in case you're wondering, yes, I did just watch the first 2 episodes of the new season 6 of Grey's Anatomy. Check out greatstufftv.com if you want to too. Damn, got EL lecture tmr, must be ready to not understand! sigh. bye!
Saturday, September 26, 2009
You know why Shah Rukh Khan is so loved by fans? Its because he's smart enough to choose roles where he's depicted as the swoon-worthy hero and he knows that he can DEFINITELY do romantic roles. If you think about it right, SRK's a very GOOD actor, because all the roles he portrays in the different movies, are so so so completely different from how he is as a person, and if you think about it, if you can portray someone so far from your own personality, you must be a pretty good actor. The annoying thing is that I don't like him as a person, but the thing is, he's such a fab actor that I've seen almost all his movies and i've seen HIS movies the most.
You know something else, India's advertisements are damn exciting la. I don't even mind that there are so many advertisements cuz they're so entertaining!
You know something else, India's advertisements are damn exciting la. I don't even mind that there are so many advertisements cuz they're so entertaining!
Friday, September 25, 2009
Dance groups that ar the BEST i've seen
And can i just say i LOVE SIMON COWELL'S SMILE!!! Like seriously, everytime I'd see it, I'd smile too. Sigh. weird I know.
oh, and the winner, who was FREAKING UNREAL!!!!
as well as this perfectly WONDERFUL group, called Flawless.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ON6pMTZAlVk
AGAIN, the request to embed was disabled. okay, now i go.
oh, and the winner, who was FREAKING UNREAL!!!!
as well as this perfectly WONDERFUL group, called Flawless.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ON6pMTZAlVk
AGAIN, the request to embed was disabled. okay, now i go.
Dancer boy
Just found out abt this kid. Totally not my fault I'm so late, I can't follow Britain's got Talent. But it really AMAZES me how much talent Britain actually has!And I don't mean it for like as a snide comment for Britain, I just mean that compared to the US, Britain's more understated and less showy. You KNOW what I mean. So yeah, its nice to see, amazing talent coming from there, and being broadcasted around the world. Anyway, ENJOY!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6HJAnrwCRyU
Sorry peeps, the person who uploaded it, disabled the embed request. So you gotta check it out via the url above. Anyway, this guy's called Aidan Davis, and he's like 11, well he was at the time of his audition, in the video, its the semi-finals and he's 12 for some reason. I tell you something, you can't compare him and George Sampson, cuz they're both very different and well, yeah.
I did notice however that this guy's an excellent performer, like the whole confidence package and he's properly putting on a performance with the facial expressions and all that. Plus, he's going to be GOR-GEOUS when he grows up, lemme tell you that. I can detect his potential.
okay, gotta go. ciao!
love love
shini
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6HJAnrwCRyU
Sorry peeps, the person who uploaded it, disabled the embed request. So you gotta check it out via the url above. Anyway, this guy's called Aidan Davis, and he's like 11, well he was at the time of his audition, in the video, its the semi-finals and he's 12 for some reason. I tell you something, you can't compare him and George Sampson, cuz they're both very different and well, yeah.
I did notice however that this guy's an excellent performer, like the whole confidence package and he's properly putting on a performance with the facial expressions and all that. Plus, he's going to be GOR-GEOUS when he grows up, lemme tell you that. I can detect his potential.
okay, gotta go. ciao!
love love
shini
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
It's in the job description
For some reason I've been thinking about Hollywood and Bollywood actors and how they always talk about lack pf privacy and they complain about always having their pictures taken and all that. And I thought, well, they shouldn't BE complaining because all that is in their job description!
Let me elaborate. See these actors and actresses, actually DEPEND on the public liking and loving them to determine their success. If they're not well-received by the public, they're movies may not do well. So, they will then do everything in their power to get the public to love them and to gain fans. Naturally, then when they have collected a fan base, their fans will WANT to know all kinds of stuff about them and to have many pictures of them, because that's how idolising people works. This is where the media comes in. They dig up information, interview the stars, capture they're every move with a camera, FOR THE FANS. So really, I don't see how these actors and actresses can gripe about the lack of privacy, unless of course the paparazzi sneak into their homes and take pictures of them in the toilet or bedroom of course. But , yeah, generally, whenever they make an appearence outside their home, like to get a Coke or something, they should expect fans and paparazzi snapping their pictures. After all, its always better to BE talked about, whether good or bad stuff then not to be talked about at all. I mean, if you're forgotten, I think it'd be hard to make money in this business.
Think about it: Why do people WANT to see their name in the paper or their face in a magazine? One DOES get a thrill from having people you don't know personally recognise you, cuz that means you're "popular" and "well-known". As much as you guys out there deny it, its true. Even for me! So next time you hear stars complaining about mobs and no privacy, think about how this is all part of the job and how they should just shut up, grin and bear it. I know I will.
shini
P.S. I'm NOT being a sourpuss or bitter. I just think you should know what you get yourself into when you DO anything, especially your JOB. And not complain, cuz you're being paid. Especially when their extra perks of the job are like so much better than any ordinary person's bonuses.
Let me elaborate. See these actors and actresses, actually DEPEND on the public liking and loving them to determine their success. If they're not well-received by the public, they're movies may not do well. So, they will then do everything in their power to get the public to love them and to gain fans. Naturally, then when they have collected a fan base, their fans will WANT to know all kinds of stuff about them and to have many pictures of them, because that's how idolising people works. This is where the media comes in. They dig up information, interview the stars, capture they're every move with a camera, FOR THE FANS. So really, I don't see how these actors and actresses can gripe about the lack of privacy, unless of course the paparazzi sneak into their homes and take pictures of them in the toilet or bedroom of course. But , yeah, generally, whenever they make an appearence outside their home, like to get a Coke or something, they should expect fans and paparazzi snapping their pictures. After all, its always better to BE talked about, whether good or bad stuff then not to be talked about at all. I mean, if you're forgotten, I think it'd be hard to make money in this business.
Think about it: Why do people WANT to see their name in the paper or their face in a magazine? One DOES get a thrill from having people you don't know personally recognise you, cuz that means you're "popular" and "well-known". As much as you guys out there deny it, its true. Even for me! So next time you hear stars complaining about mobs and no privacy, think about how this is all part of the job and how they should just shut up, grin and bear it. I know I will.
shini
P.S. I'm NOT being a sourpuss or bitter. I just think you should know what you get yourself into when you DO anything, especially your JOB. And not complain, cuz you're being paid. Especially when their extra perks of the job are like so much better than any ordinary person's bonuses.
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Poor thing....
I think that there should be a sign in my condo that says "Warning! Snails crossing after the rains", just like the "Beware of snakes" sign.
Now you must be thinking I live in some jungle area or something right? Well I don't. However, within my condo, there's this path, that leads to this bridge over the canal and the path continues to to the main road where there's a restaurant and on this path to the bridge, there's like always snails trying to cross it but never make it because they get smooshed by people. I swear that path's like Suicide Trail for snails. The poor lighting doesn't help either because since people can't see at night, they end up crushing the snails. Even I've accidentally stepped on an already crushed snail and I feel so immensely bad!!!! So I really think that there should be a sign or something.
Also, something else I wanna talk about is the incident at the VMAs involving Kanye West and Taylor Swift. I KNOW its been talked about to death and I'm quite late, but better late then never! So yeah, first of all, I don't understand WHY he did it. I mean, Beyonce won best video OF THE YEAR. Couldn't he wait? I don't understand the logic behind the act. Seriously. And secondly, the REASON noone's ever done that before is because its plain RUDE to go up and push aside the WINNER'S moment and say someone else's video was brilliant, implying that the winner didn't deserve to win, which is just TACTLESS. Thirdly, people seem to forget that Taylor's only 18, and hasn't been doing this for very long, so winning that must have been amazing for her and to just shove her aside is cruel. If you're a seasoned winner, its a different matter. Sitll RUDE mind you, but not as cruel. And lastly,apologising AFTER you did the incredibly stupid act and basically lost respect from a LOT of ppl, doesn't do anything, even if you go on a tv show and look like you're going to cry. Did nobody stop the dude? Beyonce herself was shocked that he did it and didn't look pleased that he was praising her video at all. Sigh. Poor Taylor.
Oh and can I just say I LOVE Beyonce's Single Ladies, I think its going to be my anthem! hahahha, but really and the dancing is SO CUTE! And oh, I LOVE her body!
I so wish I could go for her concert, cuz I mean how many times is she going to come down to lil ol' Spore anyway?
Urgh no money!
shini
Now you must be thinking I live in some jungle area or something right? Well I don't. However, within my condo, there's this path, that leads to this bridge over the canal and the path continues to to the main road where there's a restaurant and on this path to the bridge, there's like always snails trying to cross it but never make it because they get smooshed by people. I swear that path's like Suicide Trail for snails. The poor lighting doesn't help either because since people can't see at night, they end up crushing the snails. Even I've accidentally stepped on an already crushed snail and I feel so immensely bad!!!! So I really think that there should be a sign or something.
Also, something else I wanna talk about is the incident at the VMAs involving Kanye West and Taylor Swift. I KNOW its been talked about to death and I'm quite late, but better late then never! So yeah, first of all, I don't understand WHY he did it. I mean, Beyonce won best video OF THE YEAR. Couldn't he wait? I don't understand the logic behind the act. Seriously. And secondly, the REASON noone's ever done that before is because its plain RUDE to go up and push aside the WINNER'S moment and say someone else's video was brilliant, implying that the winner didn't deserve to win, which is just TACTLESS. Thirdly, people seem to forget that Taylor's only 18, and hasn't been doing this for very long, so winning that must have been amazing for her and to just shove her aside is cruel. If you're a seasoned winner, its a different matter. Sitll RUDE mind you, but not as cruel. And lastly,apologising AFTER you did the incredibly stupid act and basically lost respect from a LOT of ppl, doesn't do anything, even if you go on a tv show and look like you're going to cry. Did nobody stop the dude? Beyonce herself was shocked that he did it and didn't look pleased that he was praising her video at all. Sigh. Poor Taylor.
Oh and can I just say I LOVE Beyonce's Single Ladies, I think its going to be my anthem! hahahha, but really and the dancing is SO CUTE! And oh, I LOVE her body!
I so wish I could go for her concert, cuz I mean how many times is she going to come down to lil ol' Spore anyway?
Urgh no money!
shini
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Coincidence!
OMG. I have found something out and I just gotta write it here. Nothing scandalous just a HUGE coincidence.
Thespis, a theatre group in NUS, I think those doing Theatre Studies as a major, are doing.......................*drum roll please* Descendants of a Eunuch Admiral!!!!!!!
Those of who weren't from NY or you were but just don't remember, NY Drama club did this play and another original one called Walls LAST YEAR!!! Isn't that AMAZING? I know it cuz they sent the monologue required for audition to everyone and when i saw the title of the attachment as Descendants, I was like, waaaaait a minute.....and then once I scrolled down the piece, I totally recognised the speech! I was in crew, but we had to be there for the rehearsals so I definitely remember it. Ain't that just so cool! By the way, the play was written by the late Kuo Pao Kun, like oneof the founding fathers of Singapore theatre. He founded The Substation, in case you didn't know. I actually know this because I did my PI on him for PW waaaaaaayyyy back in 2007.
I'm just amazed. at the coincidence. sadly, a number of the actors from our version are still IN NY, except 2. One's in army and the other, i'm not sure. Oh wells. A nice distraction for me for a while. Back to work.
shini
Thespis, a theatre group in NUS, I think those doing Theatre Studies as a major, are doing.......................*drum roll please* Descendants of a Eunuch Admiral!!!!!!!
Those of who weren't from NY or you were but just don't remember, NY Drama club did this play and another original one called Walls LAST YEAR!!! Isn't that AMAZING? I know it cuz they sent the monologue required for audition to everyone and when i saw the title of the attachment as Descendants, I was like, waaaaait a minute.....and then once I scrolled down the piece, I totally recognised the speech! I was in crew, but we had to be there for the rehearsals so I definitely remember it. Ain't that just so cool! By the way, the play was written by the late Kuo Pao Kun, like oneof the founding fathers of Singapore theatre. He founded The Substation, in case you didn't know. I actually know this because I did my PI on him for PW waaaaaaayyyy back in 2007.
I'm just amazed. at the coincidence. sadly, a number of the actors from our version are still IN NY, except 2. One's in army and the other, i'm not sure. Oh wells. A nice distraction for me for a while. Back to work.
shini
Happiness
Don't be mislead by the title; I'm not happy. Well not yet anyway. A little stressed, because my first mid-term is tomorrow for political science and I really don't want to fail my very first mid-term, just like I don't want to do badly for my very first assignments!
So yeah, I'm not actually happy per se.
HOWEVER, I have to put this on my blog.
If Shahid Kapoor and Rani Mukherjee ever come to Singapore, I will MAKE SURE that I meet them and either get a photo or a signature or like a touch from BOTH of them. I swear. I LOVE Shahid Kapoor and Rani!!! He's just sooooooooooo ooooooohhhhhhh*shivers*!!!!! I LOVE his smile and his dimples (dimples just do it for me, really) and his body and just EVERYTHING! And the way he dances!!!! omg like wow.
And i just LOVE Rani! I'm so glad she's back, looking fab of course, and anyway I've always liked her since forever so yeah!
So you can guess that I really really can't wait for their new movie, Dil Bole Hadippa! Omg I really can't wait. I think I'll even buy the vcd, if I really like the movie, which is what I do these days; I'll buy a vcd if I really really like the movie and I have a feeling that I will. Sigh. I'm going to watch the episode of them on 10 ka Dum. My hindi's like non-existent but I can still sort of understand and still enjoy it so yeah, ciao babes.
love love
shini
So yeah, I'm not actually happy per se.
HOWEVER, I have to put this on my blog.
If Shahid Kapoor and Rani Mukherjee ever come to Singapore, I will MAKE SURE that I meet them and either get a photo or a signature or like a touch from BOTH of them. I swear. I LOVE Shahid Kapoor and Rani!!! He's just sooooooooooo ooooooohhhhhhh*shivers*!!!!! I LOVE his smile and his dimples (dimples just do it for me, really) and his body and just EVERYTHING! And the way he dances!!!! omg like wow.
And i just LOVE Rani! I'm so glad she's back, looking fab of course, and anyway I've always liked her since forever so yeah!
So you can guess that I really really can't wait for their new movie, Dil Bole Hadippa! Omg I really can't wait. I think I'll even buy the vcd, if I really like the movie, which is what I do these days; I'll buy a vcd if I really really like the movie and I have a feeling that I will. Sigh. I'm going to watch the episode of them on 10 ka Dum. My hindi's like non-existent but I can still sort of understand and still enjoy it so yeah, ciao babes.
love love
shini
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Wouldn't I love to see this in person!
I just had to put this up when I discovered it. Obviously I've been living under a rock and found out about flashmobs only NOW. But then again, better late then never right?
Monday, September 14, 2009
Long Long to go....
I take it back I take it back I really really take it back.
I take it AAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL back. Promise promise.
I AM extremely worried about my assignments.
I HAVE suddenly realised that DR is frighteningly close and I simply cannot perfect(forget perfect, more like finish ON TIME) the 3 2-feet chakkas.
I also HAVE realised that my mid-terms are immediately after my non-existent break, and so are my essays.
I really really really REALLY don't want to fail my soci and genes and soc assignments and my ps test this week. I don't want to FAIL anything. In fact I really really want to get As. It'll be a nice change from always getting Bs my whole life. I think after A's I not only got complacent but also stupider.
A TERRIBLE COMBINATION. Lethal.
omg omg omg omg omg why am I stressing out so much, i'm only in 1st sem of 1st year, omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Man I need to calm down. Even my birthday, next month isn't helping. Probably cuz I've got to get through like ALL my mid-terms, and assignments and even some essays before I can officially turn 19 and CELEBRATE. Damn that sucks.
Urgh. I'm going to bed. MUst take off make-up first.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BABE!!!!!(you know who you are!)
love love
shini
I take it AAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL back. Promise promise.
I AM extremely worried about my assignments.
I HAVE suddenly realised that DR is frighteningly close and I simply cannot perfect(forget perfect, more like finish ON TIME) the 3 2-feet chakkas.
I also HAVE realised that my mid-terms are immediately after my non-existent break, and so are my essays.
I really really really REALLY don't want to fail my soci and genes and soc assignments and my ps test this week. I don't want to FAIL anything. In fact I really really want to get As. It'll be a nice change from always getting Bs my whole life. I think after A's I not only got complacent but also stupider.
A TERRIBLE COMBINATION. Lethal.
omg omg omg omg omg why am I stressing out so much, i'm only in 1st sem of 1st year, omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Man I need to calm down. Even my birthday, next month isn't helping. Probably cuz I've got to get through like ALL my mid-terms, and assignments and even some essays before I can officially turn 19 and CELEBRATE. Damn that sucks.
Urgh. I'm going to bed. MUst take off make-up first.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BABE!!!!!(you know who you are!)
love love
shini
Friday, September 11, 2009
R/s
I've just realised that the only time when I can read continuously is when either the material is fascinating, or when I have snacks to munch on. And I literally mean munch, and crunch. Nothing soft and mushy for me ( I don't like mushy stuff anyway). The good thing is that this excludes things like cookies, cakes, brownies and chocolate. The bad thing is that everything else, like potato chips, nuts, muruku, biscuits, and cucumber and whatever else is crunchy, is on that list. I have no idea what the hell is wrong with me but if I succumb to my "urges", I'm going to be like as wide as the freaking Grand Canyon!
Sigh.
I shall try to abstain. I'm feeling stressed already!
love love
shini.
P.S. I need need need need to dance. DESPERATELY
Sigh.
I shall try to abstain. I'm feeling stressed already!
love love
shini.
P.S. I need need need need to dance. DESPERATELY
Thursday, September 10, 2009
omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg!
Sigh. This post may not be very clear. As in, you might not know what's going on. This is fuelled purely by emotions. And whatever is goig on in my head, is exactly what's written here.
ooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*shivers*
You can probably guess that the weird parts of the post are reactions to whatever I'm doing/thinking of right now.
1. I'm damn worried about my genes and society assignment. but actually less worried now, cuz i'm almost finished with it.
2. I'm even MORE worried abotu my sociology assignment, because I have no idea what concept to use,and HOW to find an article to evaluate. And of course WHAT THE HELL TO WRITE. Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
3. There's that political science test NEXT week, and oh did I mention the deadlines for the above 2 assignments are ALSO next week?
4. Of course, we must also prepare for tutorials, and whoopee, gotta come up with SOMETHING for south asian studies.
5. And there's dance. I'm getting A LEETLE BETTER, but still, not perfect. those damn chakras, the 2 feet ones and oh! the fact that cuz i'm short, i'm leading lines, so i can't be too fast or in the wrong place?!! and when I worry, about it, ppl tell me to chill?? Babes, I can't chill about this! I don't care, I'm practicing without glasses from now on. From saturday onwards.
6. DIWALI CLEANING AND BAKING.
need I say more? the other tests are after the break, and the other assignments. but i'm refusing to think about them right now. October is going to be HELL. sadly, its my birthday month too. oh wells.
I need to get a planner. or smth with dates and spaces to write stuff down for those dates.
I'm running out of comfortable footwear. I'm so not kidding. one pair broke today. 2 pairs will break soon. my black flats are useless. so i've only got my clogs, browns and blues. all are covered. Sigh. must go shopping. On a completely unrelated note, did u know that a mummy rat can influence whether or not a baby rat will turn out anxious either nurturing too much or too little? After the week of nurturing, the baby stays that way. cool huh?
okay, i'm going off to take out my make-up (yes I wear eye-shadow and liner to school. the shadow is to mask my not straight liner lines.) and sleep. Cuz its nearly 2. I shall watch the highlights for the eng vs croatia match tmr. byess
shini
oh! oh! OH! My new fav song. Don't laugh.
I CAN'T WAIT TO WATCH!
love love!
Sigh. This post may not be very clear. As in, you might not know what's going on. This is fuelled purely by emotions. And whatever is goig on in my head, is exactly what's written here.
ooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*shivers*
You can probably guess that the weird parts of the post are reactions to whatever I'm doing/thinking of right now.
1. I'm damn worried about my genes and society assignment. but actually less worried now, cuz i'm almost finished with it.
2. I'm even MORE worried abotu my sociology assignment, because I have no idea what concept to use,and HOW to find an article to evaluate. And of course WHAT THE HELL TO WRITE. Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
3. There's that political science test NEXT week, and oh did I mention the deadlines for the above 2 assignments are ALSO next week?
4. Of course, we must also prepare for tutorials, and whoopee, gotta come up with SOMETHING for south asian studies.
5. And there's dance. I'm getting A LEETLE BETTER, but still, not perfect. those damn chakras, the 2 feet ones and oh! the fact that cuz i'm short, i'm leading lines, so i can't be too fast or in the wrong place?!! and when I worry, about it, ppl tell me to chill?? Babes, I can't chill about this! I don't care, I'm practicing without glasses from now on. From saturday onwards.
6. DIWALI CLEANING AND BAKING.
need I say more? the other tests are after the break, and the other assignments. but i'm refusing to think about them right now. October is going to be HELL. sadly, its my birthday month too. oh wells.
I need to get a planner. or smth with dates and spaces to write stuff down for those dates.
I'm running out of comfortable footwear. I'm so not kidding. one pair broke today. 2 pairs will break soon. my black flats are useless. so i've only got my clogs, browns and blues. all are covered. Sigh. must go shopping. On a completely unrelated note, did u know that a mummy rat can influence whether or not a baby rat will turn out anxious either nurturing too much or too little? After the week of nurturing, the baby stays that way. cool huh?
okay, i'm going off to take out my make-up (yes I wear eye-shadow and liner to school. the shadow is to mask my not straight liner lines.) and sleep. Cuz its nearly 2. I shall watch the highlights for the eng vs croatia match tmr. byess
shini
oh! oh! OH! My new fav song. Don't laugh.
I CAN'T WAIT TO WATCH!
love love!
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Question: Can you only call it teen angst till you are a teen?
If so, does, nineTEEN count?
Then I suppose after you go PAST that last teen year, you can't have all that angst, cuz then you're being immature right? Then you should GROW UP and suck it UP?
So is there a term for "teen angst" for young adults? Or are young adults not allowed it?
By the way, these are actual questions. So feel free to post comments and answer them. thanks
shini
If so, does, nineTEEN count?
Then I suppose after you go PAST that last teen year, you can't have all that angst, cuz then you're being immature right? Then you should GROW UP and suck it UP?
So is there a term for "teen angst" for young adults? Or are young adults not allowed it?
By the way, these are actual questions. So feel free to post comments and answer them. thanks
shini
Teen Angst (urgh)
God.
I've just behaved like a class one SPOILED BRAT.
Like seriously. I'm really amazed at myself. She's probably extremely pissed at me now. And I really don't blame her. I didn't even know why I was going on, its like I was possessed by the "bad daughter" or something. Also, the "stupid daughter". I'll probably regret the snap decision I made, but after all that I'm definitely seeing it through. Its probably all for the best anyway, won't have any money for going out( I can see the future don't you know), and should probably save my already small store of energy for the dance performance coming up. (look above to see my thoughts about THAT subject)
ARGH. can't stand myself sometimes. So bloody moody;can't take it I tell you.
shini
P.S. on a happier note, I've discovered a quaint little website that's got pretty good writing(can u say intimidation on my end?), quirky little tidbits on various topics and a cute title.
Do visit it when you can, to check it out. www.pennysdaybook.com
I've just behaved like a class one SPOILED BRAT.
Like seriously. I'm really amazed at myself. She's probably extremely pissed at me now. And I really don't blame her. I didn't even know why I was going on, its like I was possessed by the "bad daughter" or something. Also, the "stupid daughter". I'll probably regret the snap decision I made, but after all that I'm definitely seeing it through. Its probably all for the best anyway, won't have any money for going out( I can see the future don't you know), and should probably save my already small store of energy for the dance performance coming up. (look above to see my thoughts about THAT subject)
ARGH. can't stand myself sometimes. So bloody moody;can't take it I tell you.
shini
P.S. on a happier note, I've discovered a quaint little website that's got pretty good writing(can u say intimidation on my end?), quirky little tidbits on various topics and a cute title.
Do visit it when you can, to check it out. www.pennysdaybook.com
URGH
I'm frustrated. EXTREMELY frustrated.
See, I'm a dancer. I've been dancing for like, at least 10 years, if not more. Technically, been "performing" since I was in kindergarten. And well, what I've come to realise about myself is that when I go up on stage, I better make sure that I do a good job. And not just a good job, but i damn great job. I mean why go up otherwise right?
Which is why for every performance I've done, doesn't matter whether or not its complicated or simple, I've somewhat perfected it, before I go up on stage. I'm talking about for every single performance.
Hence, you can understand my frustration when for some reason, I'm not able to perfect this latest dance. I'm taking part in Dance Revolutions, doing Kathak. I've NEVER done Kathak before, and let me tell you, its completely different from Bharatha Natyam.(been learning the latter dance since I was 8). Technically, I've only started learning the dance for like, 2 weeks or so. Thankfully, I've been able to memorise it, but that's only because, truthfully, the dance is fairly simple, in terms of moves. Like the number.
HOWEVER, since the dance is few in number of moves, every move counts. Technique becomes very important, and everything, including how to step and turn, becomes like 10 times more important. And I'm extremely frustrated with myself because I can't seem to perfect it! Like when I look at the mirror when I'm dancing, I just feel I look wrong. The worst is the chakras(turns/spins). There are 3-feet ones and 2-feet ones, not many mind you. But still, the few that I HAVE to do, just don't look as good as when the seniors do them. Again, pisses me off. I do try to practice, but when I spin repeatedly, my heel starts to burn from the friction. I constantly feel like I'm doing short-cuts when I dance. Like I'll perfect the move, withou he music, but the minute the music starts and we start, all the perfection polishing goes out the window. Don't know what's wrong with me. And I HAVE to perfect it, otherwise, I'll feel terrible, and worse, it'll show in the performance. Plus, I don't have contacts, so I gotta be able to do everything withoug sight.Well, much sight.
Sigh. I'm just in a bad mood. I really realy hope I perfect it. I just have to. urgh.
nights.
shini
See, I'm a dancer. I've been dancing for like, at least 10 years, if not more. Technically, been "performing" since I was in kindergarten. And well, what I've come to realise about myself is that when I go up on stage, I better make sure that I do a good job. And not just a good job, but i damn great job. I mean why go up otherwise right?
Which is why for every performance I've done, doesn't matter whether or not its complicated or simple, I've somewhat perfected it, before I go up on stage. I'm talking about for every single performance.
Hence, you can understand my frustration when for some reason, I'm not able to perfect this latest dance. I'm taking part in Dance Revolutions, doing Kathak. I've NEVER done Kathak before, and let me tell you, its completely different from Bharatha Natyam.(been learning the latter dance since I was 8). Technically, I've only started learning the dance for like, 2 weeks or so. Thankfully, I've been able to memorise it, but that's only because, truthfully, the dance is fairly simple, in terms of moves. Like the number.
HOWEVER, since the dance is few in number of moves, every move counts. Technique becomes very important, and everything, including how to step and turn, becomes like 10 times more important. And I'm extremely frustrated with myself because I can't seem to perfect it! Like when I look at the mirror when I'm dancing, I just feel I look wrong. The worst is the chakras(turns/spins). There are 3-feet ones and 2-feet ones, not many mind you. But still, the few that I HAVE to do, just don't look as good as when the seniors do them. Again, pisses me off. I do try to practice, but when I spin repeatedly, my heel starts to burn from the friction. I constantly feel like I'm doing short-cuts when I dance. Like I'll perfect the move, withou he music, but the minute the music starts and we start, all the perfection polishing goes out the window. Don't know what's wrong with me. And I HAVE to perfect it, otherwise, I'll feel terrible, and worse, it'll show in the performance. Plus, I don't have contacts, so I gotta be able to do everything withoug sight.Well, much sight.
Sigh. I'm just in a bad mood. I really realy hope I perfect it. I just have to. urgh.
nights.
shini
Thursday, September 3, 2009
I have NEVER been able to skip a lecture or tutorial. Like SERIOUSLY, never. I just was never capable of doing it. I've never EVER done it in my 12 years of formal schooling.
TILL NOW...
Oh yes, you heard me.
I ACTUALLY SKIPPED A LECTURE TODAY.
I'm as shocked as you. I just was so tired and hungry and fed UP with the feeling of behind-ness that I just wanted to go home and either chill or do my reading. You can guess which one I did. Plus, I figured I usually fall asleep in that lecture so I thought, might as well go home and sleep right?oh wells, can't do anything about it now!
oh and can I just say thank goodness it is friday TOMORROW. Like seriously. I wait for the weekend to come EVERY WEEK. Sad right?
shini
TILL NOW...
Oh yes, you heard me.
I ACTUALLY SKIPPED A LECTURE TODAY.
I'm as shocked as you. I just was so tired and hungry and fed UP with the feeling of behind-ness that I just wanted to go home and either chill or do my reading. You can guess which one I did. Plus, I figured I usually fall asleep in that lecture so I thought, might as well go home and sleep right?oh wells, can't do anything about it now!
oh and can I just say thank goodness it is friday TOMORROW. Like seriously. I wait for the weekend to come EVERY WEEK. Sad right?
shini
I give up. I really really do. Actually, to be a leeeeetle clearer, I give up on 2 separate issues. One is something I've griped about fairly frequently and only a few people know what I'm talking about. So we can forget that.
The second issue is somewhat a private thing. Not like physically private, to do with my body but its just an issue that I've been thinking more and more about since I entered uni. I mean I can't help thinking about it. Its all around me! At first I thought, well, eventually, it'll happen. The right one will come along and it will happen. But now, I just can't be bothered. I know its only been like 4 weeks, barely enough time to make ANY impressions, much less give up on something. I guess it just seems like its been such a long time because I've been thinking about if for so long. I guess I just gotta suck up the "negative" feelings, and continue with my normal life. Stop thinking about it.
God, I really am making a mountain out of a molehill. Urgh. Whatever. I'm gonna go to bed. I just really really hope I wake up in time tmr. sighs.
P.S. i think my happy music is losing its touch.
shini
The second issue is somewhat a private thing. Not like physically private, to do with my body but its just an issue that I've been thinking more and more about since I entered uni. I mean I can't help thinking about it. Its all around me! At first I thought, well, eventually, it'll happen. The right one will come along and it will happen. But now, I just can't be bothered. I know its only been like 4 weeks, barely enough time to make ANY impressions, much less give up on something. I guess it just seems like its been such a long time because I've been thinking about if for so long. I guess I just gotta suck up the "negative" feelings, and continue with my normal life. Stop thinking about it.
God, I really am making a mountain out of a molehill. Urgh. Whatever. I'm gonna go to bed. I just really really hope I wake up in time tmr. sighs.
P.S. i think my happy music is losing its touch.
shini
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