I came across this website, on Penny's Daybook. Its a quirky way to get over a relationship that ended. Called exboyfriendjewellery.com. I checked out the earrings and the stuff's really quite good! Diamonds and everything! And quite a number of the pieces are new, ( no need to explain why). If it weren't for the fact that I don't HAVE money, and that I'm not a diamonds person, YET, and that I have no way of paying for them (they're all from the US), I'd totally buy a piece.

Only thing that occurred to me was that the pieces, are obviously a reminder of the failed relationship to the owner. Well, one could say that though the pieces are new and have never been worn, there could be some "bad vibes" that could have rubbed off onto the pieces. I know that sounds really ridiculous and superstitious but don't tell me it didn't occur to you either! Of course this isn't limited to just ex-boyfriend jewellery, but to all pre-loved things. (yes the word pre-loved is preferred by many over "second-hand" or worse, "used" *shudder*) You never know what sort of situations the previous owner could have been in when they had worn say, that red skirt? Or perhaps who might have given the previous owner that old indian necklace?

On one hand, the idea of the histories behind each item, gives it flavour and makes it interesting and can even provide a conversation starter. On the other hand, its kinda creepy that other people have used the items before you. You don't know where it could have been and how CLEAN it really is. Then again, if you're the kind to worry about cleanliness, and I mean bing fastidious about it, then you wouldn't be going into the thrift shop in the first place. Still, you wouldn't be able to like, have the first memories of the item. I mean I know that the item isn't like a boyfriend or girlfriend, but you'd always wonder, what had the previous owner gone through with it? You don't have that when the item is new, just like if you date a girl who's NEVER had a boyfriend, or been on a proper date, you know that you don't have to worry about her comparing you to her previous dates or bfs. And yes, I am aware that I just compared a girl to an item, but you KNOW I don't mean it in that degrading way. After all, I AM a girl myself.

Anyway, I'm done wondering about this, and am feeling guilty about wasting the entire saturday away, (BLAME DIVY) so I shall TRY and finish Plato by today even though my prof has finished Aristotle too already, so yes, I am screwed.

LOVE LOVE
SHINI

P.S. I really really REALLY hope that neither of my parents ever find this blog. mama and papa, if you're reading this, DON'T TELL ME IN ANY WAY. and please stop reading, for your sake. Oh! and apparently my dad has a blog too, with receipes on it. I don't know whether to look for it or pretend he never told me and forget that it exists. I'm gonna go with the latter for now.

ciao!
P.P.S. MY MOTHER IS GOING FOR KUMAR STRIPPED! ON FRIDAY!!! and she always said she'd never go. well here she is, going WITHOUT ME. *rolls eyes* my mother has a more happening social life than me, as of this moment, she's getting ready to go out with "the ladies", while I'm sitting on sofa, wondering what the movie on tonight is and whether I should watch it or not. Sigh. ta loves

Kathak ki Kahani

The above event in the title slot ended 2 days ago, but for some reason I've waited till now to write about it. Don't get me wrong, I'd have definitely written about it but I guess I was just waiting to be in the right frame of mind.

And now I am!

Okay, for those of you who have no idea what I'm talking about, Kathak ki Kahani is a a production put up by NUS Indian Dance (Kathak), and was one of the programmes included in the Exxonmobile Campus Concerts festival thingy and it was held on the 17th of February(can't believe that's how its spelt), 2010 at the University Cultural Centre in NUS. The concert is about the history of Kathak, a dance form originated from north India and showcased 5 pieces, Bhajan, Holi, Raas, Mughal and Contemporary. I performed in Bhajan and Raas.

Now that the background is over, let's get to the dissection of the experience proper. First of all, I'm not a kathak dancer. Not traditionally. I had been a Bharatha Natyam dancer for a long time, and those of you who know your dance forms, you'll know that they are 2 completely different kinds of dance forms. I mean hello, they originated from geographically different places. So when I was asked to do the dances, I was extremely apprehensive about it. More so when I saw the choreography. There's this thing that appears a lot in Kathak, called chakars. They're basically, turns, either on the spot or while you're moving. The different levels of difficulty are based on how many times you step before turning and of course the speed. People normally turn or spin on their toes, but unless you've been training in contemporary or jazz for years or if you're an ice-skater, your toes will blister and hurt when you spin on your toes, continuously. In Kathak on the other hand, you're supposed to pivot on your heel and keep your balance with your other foot. Slowly, its not a problem, even I can do it, if I practice enough. Its the faster ones that cause the problems.

So you can imagine my horror when I saw that Bhajan ended on like 25 chakars. I was completely convinced that I was screwed. Plus the finale, had me spinning out, from the curtains, and then having to do really fast chakars, 4 at a time. By the time we were lik 2 days away from the show, I was seriously freaking out. I had managed to master the Bhajan spins, but not the finale, and I was seriously worried about spinning off stage in onto someone's lap(the audience was like literally 5 inches or less from the stage). Just before we were going to start, like half an hour before 8pm, I was wringing my hands and pacing in the dressing room and just basically freaking out completely. I had NEVER been so so scared to perform. NEVER in my entire life of going on stage. I was never so insecure. One could almost say stage fright. And I've been going on stage since I was in kindergarten mind you. I mean I could do the dance in my sleep, but at the same time, I could also just blank completely and forget the steps. I wasn't confident at all. And at the same time, I wanted it to be perfect. It didn't help that for the first time I had to change between dances. I NEVER had to do that. So yeah it was safe to say that getting through THIS performance and doing it well was a personal achievement for me.

Did I enjoy myself on stage? Well I'm not one for attention, though it can be hard to believe since I perform a fair bit. But see, I perform because I like dance, not cuz I like the attention. If my family and friends didn't come to the performance, of course I'd be disappointed, but, I'd still be fine. So when I'm on stage, I'm not really enjoying the audience's attention, but I am enjoying the dancing. Or rather the perfection of the dance, on my part. I really like nailing a routine, gives me a rush. When I can't nail it, its such an awful feeling I tell you. And you know what, I was totally enjoying myself on stage, the dancing part. So at some points, the plastered fake smile, was real.
After the show, we was a resounding success by the way, my parents and friends told me we were sitting in the 4th row. Which was kinda near where I was staring at I think. That night's performance was the 1st after 13 years, that my entire family had gone to. The last time, it was in primary 1, when I was playing the little blue bird in Snow White and the Seven Dwarves. You'd have thought that as little bird, I wouldn't do much, but I totally had lines. I was sort of the leading bird, like there was the leading squirrel and leading racoon. I actually remember being on stage and the rehearsals. And on the video, which of course my proud parents bought, you can see that I totally rolled my eyes on stage, presumably cuz I was tired of flapping my wings and flirting with the Prince. It WAS tiring you know. Anyway, I apparently have a habit of unknowingly rolling my eyes on stage, which I hope I didn't do that night. Gotta ask di. Anyway, I'm hungry now so I'm gonna go eat my brunch now. Ciao!

love love,
shini

I'm in obviously a MUCH better mood right now. I actually should go off to shower( yes at 1.30am), but I gotta write this quick.

About like an hour ago, I was feeling frustrated and tired and just urgh. Cuz I had finished dance, about 8 or 9 hours of it and I have dance tomorrow and the next few days, making sure its perfect for the show, WHICH IT WILL BE THANK YOU VERY MUCH, but yeah its tiring. And NOW, I'm in SUCH a fabulous mood, I could like sing and dance and do turns! its amazing what a really good episode of a favourite show, which you had to wait a WEEK to watch can do to your mood. I just managed, after much tears and blood and sweat, to watch the entire episode of Grey's Anatomy season 6 episode 14 and it was so so cute and wonderful, but also sad which is exactly what I expect from it and I'm just really really happy now (which you can tell cuz i'm totally rambling). And it was so cute, cuz the episode, was on Valentine's day, which it is, officially. Ordinarily, i'd not exactly HATE Valentine's but, just be indifferent to it. After all, I don't have that SPECIAL someone right? of course I'd be wishing all my friends and giving the close ones little presents, but that was in the past I guess, when I did that in school. Now, not so much. At least this Valentine's I get to save money, rather than spend it. So I was kinda feeling bleurgh about it, but after watching the show, I'm in a much better frame of mind I guess. (stilll rambling as you can see). Okay, NOW, i'm just gonna go and shower and do the dishes my kind family has left for me.

love love,
shini

So not in the mood

I'm really in an urgh mood. I'm just NOT in the mood to talk, and pretend I care, and share my stuff and look pleasant. I just want some food, ANYTHING, a hot shower and some good 'ol vegetation either in front of the com or the tv. I just don't want to come home to loud noises. NOT ON A BLOODY FRIDAY WHEN I'VE BEEN IN SCHOOL THE WHOLE DAY. And when you told me, I thought it'd be a day thing, not an OVERNIGHT thing. Don't you think the OTHER occupants also deserve prior notice, or in you case, permission? I might be bitching, and sounding bitchy, but there you have it, i AM bitchy when I'm exhausted and haven't had much sleep the previous night. deal with it.

Argh. And you know what?

I don't even care if you see this. Although if I know you, you've probably NEVER read my blog. so whatever.

going off to sulk somemore and find FOOD.

shini

Pirates of the Carribbean Trilogy

I don't know if I've mentioned it here, but I COMPLETELY LOVE LOVE LOVE the Pirates of the Carribbean trilogy!!!

Like really really love love the movies and everything about them. I know people are like, "its just a hollywood-big-blockbuster with so-so acting and action and a whole load of water",(my mother described them to that effect), but I really like the stories and the twists and the weird information you learn and the amazing lines and of course I find Captain Jack Sparrow incredibly hilarious and strangely attractive. I especially love the 2 love stories and how in the end, Davy Jones was reunited with his love Calypso and the ending of Elizabeth and Will's love story could NEVER have been predicted. And let me just say that Will looked delicious after he was made captain of the flying dutchman(though it does disturb me that a DJ in spore is called the flying dutchman as well).

Something about the music in the movies, I don't know how to explain it in words, but I just love listening to the music. Especially this one tune, from the 3rd movie, you'll hear it in the video I'm putting up, the one titled "One Day". The tune from 2.39 onwards, that little thin tune, I truly just LOVE it and I don't know at the same time I just feel sad. Sigh. As you will probably guess, if you know me by now, I just finished watching the 3rd movie. My dad had taped it at my request when Channel 5 showed it on Sun (THANK YOU CHANNEL 5!), and I managed to watch it just now and ooooooohhh*swoons* totally had to offload some thoughts. As well as find some of the songs. Okay, I should go and do some reading before shuffling off for dance practice.

a pretty good version of the original i think

I'll look for the pirate song that they sing. only got the short one

Enjoy!
love love
shini

Star Screen Awards

I know a lot of people think Bollywood is lame, but well, I don't. So that's why I'm going write a post about the Star Screen Awards which I've just watched on Youtube thanks to a dedicated uploader, who did a marvelous job of uploading the entire show. Anyway, I've always wondered when they show the actors' faces, like during the performances or the jokes, or event he award presentation bits, what they're REALLY thinking in their heads. Since they always have this placcid look on thier faces, very rarely does the smile look real. So they must have something going on in the heads right? If I were at the awards shows I'd be smiling for real THE ENTIRE TIME. seriously. Then again, being SOOOOOOO close to so many stars, is bound to make me grin like an idiot.

I wonder what the stars really think about Salman Khan's performance. The guy performs like every year.Though I find it interesting that he wasn't even nominated this year, even though he had done like 3 films, he still did a pretty long performance, with kids. I thought it was a really good performance, I mean at least he didn't look tired out. I really applaud him you know, for performing almost every year, even though his popularity among his fellow actors has fallen. Lots of the public still like "Salman bhai" but I don't think many of his collegues do. Judging by the looks on their faces anyway when he performs. I personally still like the guy, just cuz he tries to do movies and performs,and has a tv show. And if u watch his old movies, not OLD old, but like some time ago, he's quite quite charming. So he's a fairly decent actor and he's done TONS of movies. So yeah, I really do like him and applaud him for trying. Of course I don't know or think he's the best partner, but whatever.

One thing I gotta mention as well, before I forget is that I hope the stars realise that without their fans, who go and watch their movies, they're nothing. They should totally be thankful to their fans and I also think that they should also sort of expect the fans to want to know all kinds of things about them, because well, that's how adoration works. At the same time, some privacy must be sort of kept, I think including their love lives because I'm guessing with non-famous people, if you go around saying u're with this person, when nothing's confirmed and its still the in-between stage so the other person might be scared off. So yeah, a little give a little take.
okay, i'm tired of typing so i'm gonna go now
LOVE THE STAR SCREEN AWARDS 2010!!! SHAHID WAS so so cute!!!!!!
shini

I'm just dying to get a new phone. I mean my dad's old phone is perfectly fine and captures great pictures and I can put many songs in it but still. Its not like what I picked. And right now, I'm totally craving a touch phone with a slide out keyboard. Any brand. Sigh. But I have to wait till my plan's done, which is like end of this year.

I'm also dying dying dying to go and buy new shoes. Like dying to spend my Charles&Keith voucher on a pair of heels. Unfortunately I can only go with my sister, so that we can maximise both our vouchers. And she for some reason is so freaking busy that she can't go or every time we happen to BE in the shop, she forgot to BRING the voucher. Sigh.

I also really really need to kick myself to do my work. or someone has to kick me. Seriously. urgh.

shini

Everybody Loves Raymond

I never used to watch Everybody Loves Raymond, when it was actually running for like the first time. Didn't think it was very funny or appealing.

Well after it ended its first run, Starworld started showing its re-runs after the re-runs of Friends, and I sort of began to watch it, and I'm totally loving it. Yeah sure its funny, and boy can the mother drive ME up the wall. But the thing is, what really surprised me was that the show could really touch my heart. There were actually episodes, in which I cried! Granted I'm somewhat of a crybaby and it could have just been hormones at that point in time, but I still think its quite touching!

Like there was this episode, where Frank was awarded Man of the Year in his club and his sons had to put together something to for the presentation ceremony and they decided to do a video of them getting his friends to say good things about him. Unfortunately, all his "buddies" had nothing nice to say about him so they just asked them how they felt about chocolate and they subbed that in. Obviously in the end, Frank knew that his buddies actually hated him, because Ray and Rob couldn't even get 5 minutes of genuine material from them. And he was really upset, but in the end, Marie told him what she'd have said on the video, and after much persuading, so did he and i just LOVED that bit. Another one I think was about when Marie went on a cruise with Ray while Frank was stuck at home with a broken leg while Rob looked after him and of course you can imagine how both fared. When she came home, he was miserable and irritable and she was in a fab mood. Basically, we sort of learn more about their relationship, that even though they really act like they can't stand each other, they geniunely love each other underneath all that. They even have sex on a regular basis! I totally bawled when watching that (not the sex part), the loving part. And even just now, when Ray discovered that Marie had been reading his diary all those years he kept one and was furious about it, and she was just the most upset about when he wrote that he hated his mom, with no explaination or exclaimation suggesting he was writing it in the heat of the moment. Deb was at first irritated that Ray had apologised to his mom for something she had done wrong but then she realised that, yeah, when you have all your doubts about being a good mother and noone is supporting you and your son is silent and then you read that he hates you in his diary, like its a fact, it really really hurts.

Makes me feel bad about when I had written somethings along those lines in my diaries. and yes, I have more than one. Granted, my handwriting is so bad it takes even ME a while to figure out what the hell I wrote, but I just hope that nobody EVER reads my diary. Especially my mother. Actually no, I mean NO BODY can ever read it. sigh.

okay, since I'm thoroughly screwed for tomorrow's tutorial, since I haven't DONE the reading, I should at least sleep NOW at 2 am so that MAYBE I will wake up early tmr.

SHINI