Okay, I'm aware that I'm not sober, which is probably why I'm thinking about this. I've had about three-quarters of a wine bottle, but NO I am not drunk. Thing is with me is that, if things aren't settled fine with me, eventually they crop up in my mind and plague me till I can either shove the thoughts away, or solve the issues.

I suppose I can attribute this latest bout of nostalgia to the missed call I received today and the conversation I had through text messages. I don't know if anyone will even read this blog post (I sincerely hope not) however, I needed to think outloud. At least since no one is answering my messages.

This is actually a story of my friend's. Or rather her dilemma. No one needs to know the details, because I'm just going to type here what I felt when she was telling me her story. Indignation, anger and for some reason I still understood. Even though I knew she was being ridiculous. I still got why it bugged her. You see, she had a long distance "thing" with this guy. It didn't last very long but it was her first "thing". After everything, including when she met up with him 6 months after she ended things to clear the air, she thought everything was fine and she was mostly indifferent towards him. However, something hurt. That something was when a mutual friend, told her through another friend that, apparently he had said that he was "never committed to her". Now, it was a "thing". According to many people, including those who said it was nothing. However, to her, it was something, especially since he said he loved her. He said it real soon too. After about a month of meeting her in person and 2 months of knowing her. Much sooner than she did. You see, to her, saying I love you is kind of a big thing. She emphasised on that. So she just cannot understand how someone was "never committed" to her and yet freely said those words. He could have been an "I love you slut"-Someone who just says it too soon, doesn't really know the meaning of the words. Which is still terrible. This I tried to reason with her.

She doesn't FEEL anything of that sort for him, just that it apparently bugs her that he could say such a thing to someone about her. Or that he might have taken it so lightly. Sigh. She'll get over it, I know she will. But man, wherever he is, I'd really like to give him a few punches where it'll REALLY hurt. What can I say? I'm a bit violent sometimes :)

-Shini